i know itz right da moment i see u ..

a day aft valentine

2006-02-16T00:01:00.000+08:00

waahh valentine day was hell of a bore..haha no gf is liddat =P lucky still have some frens to keep me company at nite.. anyway i practically spent the whole day of luv, thinkin abt my choices( for poly).. time well spent i guess haha.. decided finally to get into business, TP's hopefully..anyway my first 3 choices were like business in the 3 diff polys (TP,SP,NP) really prayin hard i get into TP's business..

today is another borin day as well la.. lucky i was able to find lester my sec sch classmate and buddy to keep me company.. wanted to go play pool but the auntie abit jian la, put 'NO HALF-UNIFORMS' in front of her door hahahaha.. so we cant =( hence we decided to go kBox-ing cuz it was jus beside kPool.. super funny la none of us dare to ask the recep abt the price and all cuz i think we scared kena mistaken as gay hahahahaha =P finally the one with the guts, charm and the most shuai went to ask la( ME k)! and we got rm25 i think and started singing like slaughtered chickens hahahah.. so paiseh~ weiyuan joined us later and she was like queen of kBox lor!! we can only open our mouths and be awed by her singing talents =) cook k!! lester was hungry aft singing so we went to eat ramen-ten.. funny place, but the food was not bad..aft dat we went to orchard, lester went home but weiyuan and i went strolling orchard like nobody's business haha and it is really nobody's business wad!! talked abit and took neo-prints which meiqi says i look like a butch =( oh my, time for image change haha..we ate ice-cream too!! my fav food nowadays, practically live on them =P well weiyuan wanted to go for ladies nite so she met up with meiqi and I send them to club momo i think haha cant rmb.. oh and before dat those 2 ladies did sth dat was so AA in orchard rd.. using me as prop haha =P but their actions made my day a wonderful day!! haha i wont be able to slp tonite for sure~

``ugly boy,

walking down the street,

ugly boy,

being flanked by 2 ladies,

ugly boy,

gaining stares by everybody,

steaming from the ears,

but screaming in joy,

oh ugly boy =P``

hahaa dat was meant to be a song?doesnt sound nice anyway but watever.. finds my entry so weird but aiya 'zhi yao wo kai xin, yao ni guan' hahahaha =P

got my results

2006-02-10T23:02:00.000+08:00

began the day with a mornin call frm edwin.. he as usual pon-ed sch and asked dat i accompany him for breakfast.. well since i have nothin betta to do other den lazin on my bed i went.. was late so i stripped down and pants as promised, lucky edwin.. finished breakfast and went to play lan, lost like nobody's business.. played until we forgot the time and i was almost late for sch, to make matters worse it rained.. gotta wait for a cab at a taxi stand with no chance of a taxi comin by.. oh wells lucky me had a nice driver who U-turn for me and send both of us to my hse.. changed and rushed out with edwin to meet jianyuan and once again we took a cab! this time to sch.. late abit but it was ok =) aft much talk and clappin we queued up for our results.. wasnt wad i expected was all i cld say.. went abt hao lian-ing abt my results altho it was shyt, cuz i am a thick-skinned guy.. left sch smiling for fuck i dunno whyy too..went home to change again and off to edwin's hse for cup noodles!! so nice, my fav flavour too.. and den back to my hse to get mahjong tiles for them to play tonite =) kenneth and pJ's audition for s'pore idol.. good luck to both of them!! cld be dere cuz i am plague, so gotta go home aft i send edwin there.. muz thank edwin he was an angel to me today hahaha, guardian too =P oh wells in the end i am plague so too bad, went home slp and slp and slp.. wake up reply all the idiots who wanna laugh at my poor results and finally here to blog abt my day.. change my name to PLAGUE haha

lazy blogger..

2006-02-09T22:44:00.000+08:00

haha i am sucha lazy blogger.. well lazy by nature =P

these few days dawned on me wad a plague i am.. suddenly ppl start to avoid and shun me, so weird.. hahaha maybe my ears arent attractive anymore.. well its ok i guess, i cant have everythin my way anyway.. jus kinda sad but it will work out somehow, happy go lucky la =) tmr is the release of my o lvl results.. feelin the stress buildin up and all.. really i know its no pt thinkin and worryin but i cant help it.. come on la its natural damnit!! haha i wonder how life wld be aft i get my results.. gonna build up my confidence aft i get my results, i have been low on confidence ever since last yr.. dunno whyy too -shruggs- if i cant get my confience lvl up i will jus be plain bingshun u know, not bingy.. bingy is the crazy baby who has confidence and charm!! hahaha wth.. makes no sense to me but watever la.. i wanna go ice-skating haiz.. wonder who will keep me company -wonders- maybe some hot babe frm my dreams?haha.. results results!! so nervous haha!! muz find my buddha leg and hugg hugg!! =P

weee.. long time

2006-02-04T09:06:00.000+08:00

long time since i was in here.. haha but its ok, doesnt make much difference.. this is like an empty webpage anyway =) jus now when i logged in, qiqi came into mind.. well i guess cuz the username is her name, the password is hers and she created this wonderful blog for me.. awww so nice, everythin was so nice before =) too bad anythin i have will come to no good end hahaha.. look at this blog, frm lotsa ppl to not even a single soul.. oh wells, i'll jus shrugg my shoulders =) thanks qiqi..

came into contact with my cousin recently again.. so much happened to her, hope she will be ok.. readin her blog makes me wanna cryy, its like the end of the world pattern =( nvm la i decided to bring her out more often to cheer her up, if she wld make herself free for me =P anyway she is a sickenin gal la, got money pay everythin.. dont wanna let me pay and duwan to share.. gals are damn weird, haha look at my cousin =) heyy cousin if u are readin this post, i want u to call me k! CALL ME~ dont ask whyy, jus do it.. u have to listen to ur elders!! haha i am 1mth older k =P oh ya rmb our movie, 'WE ARE COUSINS!'

chinese new year, crapp again haha.. started off poorly =( wth.. nvm i have lotsa angbao and dats good enuff for me haha.. gonna start a book called 'THE ANGBAOS AND ME' hahahaha.. i think it wld be a best seller =P oh ya i jus rmb sth, i luv the way weiyuan says " oh bingy" hahaha sounds so nice and funny!! oh and the way jingying calls my name!! she got a cat voice so it sounds super nice.. aww thinkin of ppl now and it makes me miss some ppl =( haha oh wells i shall jus miss darwin and thanin both overseas and missin currently.. lets talk abt ytd, i came into contact with my long lost bro.. HONEY!! haha i luv honey ok~ honey is good for health`honey roX ur world`honey is fabulous!! hahaha honey~ i eat honey drink honey bathe honey and i live honey!!okie gotta go tanchin's hse now, cyaz~

oooh man~

2006-01-04T01:37:00.000+08:00

okie new year, muz have new things.. change change change!!! haha dunno how to go abt it, but lets start with my room! gonna pack it up and make it less like a pig sty =P next gonna cut my hair! so long and thick, make me HOT!! haha i duwan, i rather be COOL~ so its a short hair with a hopefully long fringe if possible, cuz i cant bear to see them go!! i kinda like it coverin my eyes makin me blind =P new specs! dats a muz, i cant continue with this spare any longer.. i want a transition lens!! can afford now dat i got some money =) new clothes maybe? see how, i'm not good with clothes for myself.. though i think i'm damn good when it comes to choosin for others =) another thing to be proud of! ok dats all for image i guess.. simple yet NICE~ hahaha.. ok den next the most impt part, personality!!! hmm kinda hard.. got too much i wanna change and sld change for the betta good.. i think i'll jus go with bein more practical =) best thing to do!! and i seriously need to GROW UP!! aww kinda sad when nobody likes childhood days.. everybody wants to be mature and serious, wad fun is dat? oh wells.. try to be mature but i think i'll still revert to bein childish, more laughter in life hahahah.. dats abt it all.. last but not least, i wanna start afresh!! so lets click the RESTART button and LETS GO~!!!!

new year

2006-01-02T00:53:00.000+08:00

YAY its the NEW YEAR!! 2006!! haha ok abit late but watever la.. went to see fireworks on that night with wai yiu and samantha, its kinda dum but fun as well =P spend the whole nite out and only came home at 5, 6 plus?? super tiredd.. cant rmb wad we did exactly, but i know it was a nite full of lies and laughter, wth.. hahaha ok end of clebration of 2006 =)

land of ice-cream

2005-12-30T01:42:00.000+08:00

hahah went out with cabbage today.. so funny, i was like voda-voda~ cuz all blue den she was like veg! hahah cuz sch uniform, all green.. C A B B A G E ! ! lovely la, we walked abt parkway parade for 2-3 hrs? waitin for the sakae buffet at 3pm.. but we nv eat dere in the end, cuz our dear xuannie princess say she feels bloated.. dumdum haha waste my time.. anyway we ate lots of ice-cream and i really thot i went into the land of ice-cream in the faraway tree haahahha.. we ate bread talk too! and i saw eleanor and charmaine, so funny those 2 gals abit siao siao one haha.. oh i got little xuannie princess her hp pouch which was a ugly pink haha, fits her.. tirin.. hahaha but i had lotsa fun =) ehhh den at nite i went to eat dinner with my cousin who came back frm brunei.. hahaha now waitin for idiotic lychee tree to call me, or i'll have a lonesome nite.. =D

wth

2005-12-22T00:11:00.000+08:00

this feelin i get ever since the end of june, really suxed.. tryin to figure my way out of this shyt.. haha and i really wanna ask her if this is true, " wo hen qi guai shuo yi ni bu ai wo" =P heh it will be great if i'm not avoided or ignored, i rather be told things straight in the face.. cuz at least i wld know.. somethings are really so near yet so far, there but not there at the same time.. the real qns that i muz ans sld be 'to continue or to give up? and wad next?' keep in mind, doin is useless unless willin..

WAS~

2005-12-12T23:34:00.000+08:00

hhahaa i WAS sick with fever,flu,cough and a headache..however i'm absolutely fine now =D the medicine used was special and one of its kind!! only had effect on me =P today was a borin day that was filled with excitement with a phone call.. oooh lala~ (56.27)

sux day sux

2005-12-10T21:32:00.000+08:00

not a beautiful day..

christianity..

stupidity and pre-occupation..

lonesome dinner..

quiet night..

thoughtful expressions..

and then heyy what else could a forlorn guy ask for?

satan's grace?

wonderful day

2005-12-08T00:16:00.000+08:00

oh my oh my today is sucha wonderful day!! went for an interview in the mornin, which was kinda disappointin yet lucky =) cuz dat means i had more time on my hands!! played FREE lan for awhile and went home a few times to change before meeting ah beng..while waitin for him, i visited our dear cute and pretty little gal, serene who was workin at mini-toons =) so nice of me rite? oh man the soft toys for sale at mini-toons were mostly ugly.. i seriously wonder whyy ppl patronise them.. anyway when i was dere, i envied this guy workin dere.. ONLY guy workin in dat shop!! lucky man, he got 3 gals to keep him conpany, altho only 1 of them which is our very own serene is pretty =P stayed at mini-toons for awhile to kill time and to keep serene company as long as possible, den both ah beng and i rushed down to tampiness!! we heard there was sth nice dat wld be goin on dere, so not gonna miss it.. oh wells it was a waste at first, bumper cars -__-'' fortunately 2 nice and sweet gals were in the vicinity =D guess who?! hahaha nobody actually.. had a cat and a tortle companionship durin dinner time, oh yeah!! =D the cat had sweet and sour pork with rice, the tortle had fried rice, ah beng and i had chicken chop on a BIG plate.. watched tv while eatin, watched until neck pain but heyy u dont get a cat and tortle for dinner everyday u know =P went to the library aft dinner.. oh man it sux! i'm very critical when it comes to libraries and books.. if the library cant produce books that suit every individual needs and wants, it muz as well close down.. a library MUZ have a conducive environment to read, to enjoy and to provide comfort.. also it MUZ have infinite books of various genre to suit everybody.. simply put, a library sld be jus like an airport!! however if u ask me abt pasir ris library..... well no comment =P okie enuff of libraries, aft the trip to the library we went for some ice-cream =) sld have seen sarah's face when she heard ice-cream, so CUTE k! this is wad i call a kodak moment lor, not like those adverts which are so lame..haha luv the way sarah eats her sundae, sarah will wipe clean the sundae cup k! oh sarah gave another kodak moment cuz she was ignored by jingying whom she was talkin to halfway.. oh mans she can be so sweet and cute ya? well dats sarah for us =P

regular blogger

2005-12-03T23:26:00.000+08:00

gonna attempt to be a regular blogger, starting frm this post onwards..ever since the O lvl exams ended i have been feeling lonely and bored.. realised there isnt much for me to do, esp w/o money and of cuz companionship.. everybody seemed to have disappeared somehow -shruggs- decided dat i damn need a job, so i went to 2 job agencies with help frm my sis.. well it is kinda bull, they provide lousy recommendations and slow at it.. well gotta try again on mon i guess..oh man, i wanna have fun!! i dont want to stay at home all day and idle.. its stupid!! i dont want the computer i dont want the tv i want to do sports! to get my body active.. i want the sun i want to sweat it all out i want to move my limbs!! oh ya i got to note 1 pt, she is so distant. the only time when i feel her up close to me is when i'm day dreaming or trying to slp, those times are fabulous =) too darn bad it isnt in reality..dec and i'm wasting my time away, i gotta do sth and i gotta be fast! haha figured i need a miracle, somebody give me 1 man.

shuang ma?

2005-11-08T21:01:00.000+08:00

haha long time since i've been here.. with so many things happenin its kinda tirin to update everyday esp when nobody reads.. but den now is write to make myself shuang only.. feelin very shuang now dunno whyy, too shuang le.. o lvls, is goin on now.. say difficult not difficult, say easy also not easy.. its like takin a stroll in the park, u feel relaxed as you walk down the path but on the other hand it is tirin as well.. funny comparision but ya dats wad i thot of.. found out dat my hse is a place of relaxation and rest, cant work and study.. too many distractin temptations! like the computer, the tv and of cuz my wonderful bed.. to tired now, still gotta study.. crapp and my eyes bled again.. over strained i guess, insufficient slp for 3-4 days in a row..

grown old, dont feel like the little bingshun of early years haha.. the impish boy who did everythin dat make ppl die of amusement and irritation, so sad is gone.. now all we haf is the crappy and full of bullshyt grown old bingshun, jus an empty shell.. so many things to do so little time, dreams still remain as dreams haha.. i rather my fantasy world..decided i'm sick of my blog skin, gonna use the one dat cute gal kiats make for me aft o lvls.. jus copy and paste, not difficult haha.. okie shuang le, go back study study study..

i'm sad..

2005-10-16T08:47:00.000+08:00

i'm sad.. very very sad =(

i lost sth impt.. very very impt =(

I WANT IT BACK!!!

recently..

2005-10-12T21:13:00.000+08:00

ahhhhhhhh.... i'm finally back to this lonely place, all black and sad.. yepps yepps no worries, i'm still happy nonetheless =) aft readin so many blogs and helpin some frens edit their blogs, i felt like bloggin.. lets start with myself!

hmm bein gettin into gear studyin for the Os.. kinda tedious cuz i havent really touched anythin this year and everythin is in sucha mess.. lotsa plannin and organisin to do before i can really start =( dun intend to do badly at all though i keep sayin i'll fail.. bein a guy is hard, guys hafta think alot abt their future more den gals do..not bein a male chauvinist but seriously guys haf NS and it doesnt jus end there and den, most of the time we are the one depended on by our parents and i believe no guys wld want their loved ones to suffer rite?esp when it comes to his beloved woman, of cuz wun want her to like slog her guts out jus to get by everyday.. so we cant be slack with it comes to our future!! hence i conclude i muz score for my Os =P

haiz i dunno wad happened to my left eye.. it seems bruised inside.. and it damn bloody hurts la, freak.. poor thing rite?yeaa i think so.. it hurts with every slight movement!! i sld go sayang myself, orh nor nor~ hahaha nvm i haf EXILE to make me feel betta!! jus downloaded it frm jingying mama my great wonderful yet evil chi teacher =P awww she so nice, thank u jingying!! havent had a chance to complete listenin to them though.. so many songs and so nice to hear, muz slowly take my time to let my big ears savour them =)

lastly let me end this bloggin session with the similar type of dreams i've been havin all this while.. they are so nice and sweet la, muz be all the honeyed water i drank every nite..sad to say its only a dream, if it was reality i haf nothin more to ask for in life sia.. lookin forward to my bed tonite! its nice to haf dreams liddat aft a long day =D okie dats all for now i guess.. cant rmb wad else i wanna put in here.. so tata~

tuition with jingying mama``

2005-10-02T21:11:00.000+08:00

oooh yea~ haha had tuition with jingying today!! this tuition is called ~B3 to A1 Chinese Tuition with JingYing MaMa!!~ this is becuz jingying is so mama-ish today =D hahah..

gave jingying the first mornin call, well as expected wasnt much of any use =P gave her a second call and directed her to the toilet.. however she told me she was walkin abt her hse in circles for god knows whyy, oh dots..okie she was late and i was late, beng was early.. oh i had a freak encounter on the bus too.. a dumdum china woman came to speak to me, make me so 'gan ga'.. was soo damn glad when i alighted..

okie first lesson today was horrendous.. cuz i wasnt prepared, bad boy me.. oh wells wun happen the next time =) cant afford to.. very dui bu qi jingying and myself de! muz work hard for A1, no pain no gain =D poor jingying today like nv study much becuz of me, feel damn bad.. next lesson muz make up..okie target for next lesson, muz memorise all sec1 to sec2 ci yu..end early and make jingying life easier =D wad a genius i am haha..

tmr is gonna be busy and hectic damn.. so busy recently.. need to get all the evts i participated too, so i can get my CIP letter frm zatan.. how sia cant rmb? damn muz go dig out my resources!!okie nitez

thots~

2005-10-01T17:54:00.000+08:00

jus came back``

achievements and results are all dat matters..
u either get it or lose it..

sad``

emotions overruled

2005-09-09T03:50:00.000+08:00

freak. jus came back frm weijiang's farewell party.. feelin shytty all over.. guess i let my emotions cloud my mind again =( was feelin so high at the start, with all the chocs and the thot of havin a chance to make things betta..however disappointments start to come bangin on my door.. stuff like kenneth havin me rush cuz he is in a hurry but it turns out he kept some time apart for me to reach, not bein able to play tennis cuz of time constraints and such.. these are the kind of stuff dat dun really bother me much.. the biggest disappointment was not bein able to make things betta instead worse =( when i did the preparations, wad went thru my mind was i gotta do it well cuz 'ppl' will be hungry if the food aint nice and it musnt be spicy.. when we( weijiang, alivin and i) went out to get stuff i only can rmb chocs for 'ppl'.. cuz i happened to know dat 'ppl' wants to eat and i chose a variety in case 1 didnt suit the likin..however it all came to nought.. ouch~ dats wad i feel even now.. seriously feel dat i expected too much and i allowed emotions to take over, freak! but den again damnit its hard! man, i dun understand whyy it has to be this way freak.. the best part was the last sms for the day, owwww~! its still embedded in my mind, heart and soul.. someone tell me where did i go wrong again, freak..damnit this is jus freakin not the way things are supposed to be!

gotta do some apologisin as well.. edwin esp, cuz i really threw ever shyt i had to him.. really sorry, cuz its him dat i really hafta thank and be grateful for always bein dere to help me out.. kenneth, alvin, beng and weijiang as well.. feel so guilty for the shyt they had to take in frm me.. guess i cant leave jingying and ppl out as well, sorry.. damnit, i hafta go re-think and re-do wisely for the next time.. provided there is dat is =(

untitled

2005-09-07T23:01:00.000+08:00

awww luv the song on my blog =P dunno whyy, jus luv it.. luv is a funny thing, cuz u nv know whyy u jus do it..but den again luv makes u dum =D dat muz be whyy i'm a dumdum hahaha.. sick alr, haha too much chocs and too much fan.. down with a sore throat and a blocked nose.. oh wells i'll get betta with luv, dat is if i can get it haha =P had a really normal day today, wastin time and lan-ing as usual.. isnt dat so a boy's life nowadays?hahah wth..however on my way back aft sendin toyz-bear home i got into my thinkin mood again =( ya its quite bad cuz with all the stuff goin on recently, wad went thru my mind are all mountains of unsolved probs botherin me one way or another.. it got me into a really low state of mind now, and its so yucky! ewwww~ so bingy is a sad bingy now =(

tmr is weijiang's farewell party before he enters the army.. sad he decided not to cut his mane tmr cuz he is shyy.. oh wells -shruggs- its a guy thing i guess, we are all the same =P gonna play tennis tmr too, i hope i can still rmb how haha.. i kinda sux at it the last time i played.. okie tata~ gonna think some more i guess, cant stop once i start..

sick world

2005-09-04T02:07:00.000+08:00

sick world this is, sick.. not only physically but mentally as well.. u know wad is the cause of this sick world?ppl.. we ppl are the most sickenin and detestable inhabitants in this beautiful and luvable world.. we dun seem to realise dat our every action affect one another, be it fellow human beings, other inhabitants like plants and animals or the world itself.. we ppl sld be disgusted with ourselves and reflect more! whyy cant we be more sensitive?less selfish?more reasonable?kinder?considerate?yea i wonder whyy.. sldnt we work towards goals dat benefit one another instead of harmin one another directly or indirectly?horrible creatures we are, dun u think?its our flaws and we sld change them! stupid ppl~

lately there are simply so many happenins ard me and i realise dat they all stem frm the same source.. its so frustratin how sth liddat cld happen.. esp when u haf no solution to it and u dunno wad is the right thing to do?u feel so helpless and alone, u see everybody standin by u but none able to help.. it is asif the whole world is crashin down on u.. whyy i ask myself, and i came to the conclusion dat human beings are selfish by nature and they dun give a damn abt it..they seem to like this flaw of theirs and refuse to change.. when i came to this conclusion, i started reflectin.. yes i'm selfish as well~ however i'm gonna be different frm the rest of the scums walkin this earth, i'm wanna change cuz i hate bein selfish! i rather do sth dat benefits not only myself but others.. dats wad we all learn when we were young rite?ya but i dun see anybody doin it..
excuses we often use is so ridiculous now i see.. crapp like i was forced by the circumstances, emotions clouded my mind blah blah blah.. rubbish, its all really up to how u view matters and choose the right decisions.. dun u know? 1 problem has many solutions!! its like doin a multiple-choice qns,there will always be options for u to choose..

writin this entry somehow made me feel a whole lot betta.. altho there is more i wanna say but i think its enuff alr, this small part of my thots will suffice greatly.. sld include this entry in my new faith! =D
reality is gonna hurt real bad~

ang moh oral

2005-08-23T21:54:00.000+08:00

hahaha dead blog.. well not dead anymore, today i revive it for 1 post hahaha =P

had my ang moh oral today.. so weird,different frm wad i expected and i was super nervous.. even more nervous when i had my chi oral.. haha second in place u know?? so shyt la.. anyway the male invigilator was a funny guy and the female invigilator was laughin all the time, freak! thruout the whole time, she was laughin and laughin and i was like damn wad the hell did i say to make u laugh until liddat..aft the passage, she kept askin me qns 1 aft another.. i didnt even get to talk abt the picture given? i had more qns den normal la and its kinda frightenin at the same time fun.. i lasted so long, i crapped, i lied and i joked.. seriously hope i get a distinction, if i dun den it was all wasted efforts man.. freak~

jus completed dan brown's the da vinci code.. finally rite?took me so long.. hahaha rmb when i started i was like 1 page a day? all thanks to the boredom of the prelims, i decided to complete the bk hahaha.. dun like the endin though.. however its my fav content!! been studyin those ever since pri sch =D now re-readin angels and demons.. so borin yet so much more interestin den studyin for prelims ahahaha.. prelims endin soon though and ya needless to say i did badly.. i know myself, awww.. feel dat its a blessin in disguise though, at least i start the wheels in motion =) den again studyin ALONE makes me feel so empty.. i wanna study with someone else but ya darent ask and dun think even if i ask i will get a chance to.. haiz sad life for a happy guy =P

bing bing bing

2005-08-17T23:25:00.000+08:00

bing bing bing~ bing bing~ bing~

prelim time!! haha and little bingy nv study!! yay celebrate, open the champagne, roll the carpets, set the fireworks!! bingy really nv die before, dunno wad it means to die.. but now bingy knows and bingy is frightened!! hahaha oh dear, wad to do? start now =D wake up call for bingy to study!!! BINGY, STUDY NOW OR IT WILL REALLY BE TOO LATE!! hahaha shucks lets guess wad bingy will get for bingy's prelims, hmm wad abt a 54? isnt it jus a nice no. or wad?haha..

bing~ bing bing~ bing bing bing~

crapp day`

2005-08-09T23:20:00.000+08:00

today is jus a waste of time.. despite bein sick, i went to help out at the national dayy celebrations in tampines.. helped out by doin odd-jobs under the scorchin sun with no food and water.. had to look aft the welfare of the other YAs helpin out and got rubbish frm the ppl in charge.. damnit, i'm jus dere to help yyfyinn out alrite!! at the end of the day i left cuz i really cldnt stand it anymore and i was hopin for greener pastures durin the nite time.. in the end it was jus another waste of time, burnt, tired, thirsty and famished but all i got was a few secs of her.. too think dat i used to complain dat she only say hi and bye =( for jus a few secs of her, i missed the chance to talk to thanin, damn.. feel like screamin out loud and spewin all the vulgarities i know!! haiz, guess i'm too angry and frustrated with myself.. wad else can i say? freak, wads the pt of bloggin when u know the ppl u wanna know abt u isnt readin at all?! this is real crapp..

lalala~

2005-08-05T21:13:00.000+08:00

met sarah ytd to pass her her sis chi dict and her naruto keychain.. she looked so waned.. muz be the heavy workload in sch.. she betta take care of herself man, if not she's gonna fall sick again.. seems like everybody been studyin real hard all the long, while i took myself on a hol.. catchin up is sure gonna be a big prob..today wasnt much of a sch day.. woke up with a splittin headache and i wonder, wad did i do the nite before to get sucha headache.. was runnin late as usual =P been like this ever since i stopped givin sarah's her mornin calls.. haha laziness jus sets in.. aft changin and all i ran out of the hse w/o my belt.. lucky i was usin the draw-string thingy, if not i'll be caught for detention for sure.. stupid sch with stupid teachers gives u stupid punishments, oh wells.. had to do some explanin in the mornin to xiao-pan and den i started to go hyper in class =P haha cuz we won the marist youth day highest sales for the whole sec 4 lvl and got CHOC~!! so happy, so long nv eat so many sweet stuff!! =) i was like eatin and eatin thru-out eng lesson?so shiok, eat and do compo.. papa-ragu also nv say anythin, cuz he greedy!! come our class kope food.. we eat and do compo, he eat and give oral, so dots.. feelin rich, so durin recess i did charity!! i bought some spca er badges? sth liddat.. so happy =D aft recess was math and lala-loh wasnt ard.. so had mdm lim, roX sia.. use mp3 use hp do watever shyt she also dun care hahaha.. so i mass sms everyone "chi bao le mar?" funniest reply i got was frm kenneth.. so ke ai, crapp back with me.. crazy ass =P next was hall assembly and it was abt SEX.. totally rubbish la, in the end i almost fell aslp.. i think they sld change the title to RELATIONSHIPS instead lor.. anyway it was still amusin to see all the exprienced teachers in this area to blush.. haha all the super red faces and grins =P finally when it was all over, i went home and slp.. so crapp, since ytd i've been havin weird dreams.. stupid dreams la, make me wake up with a jolt and den the headache attack.. dots.. typed so much but who reads?me myself and i.. haha oh wells..

oooh yea~

2005-08-01T22:08:00.000+08:00

melise~!! i'm updatin =) haha dun say nv inform..

guess who i'm meetin on thurs??haha -jumps for joy- betta be guai in sch all the way till thurs, duwan to get detained or watever crap on thurs.. angelic bingshun, dats gonna be so rare.. =P hmm maybe i sld learn frm dan and go fUCK a dUCK for lUCK, hahahaha..

prelims comin and i'm still as clueless as ever with my subjects.. been a sprinter ever since young, so lets try to sprint thru this comin prelim as well =) nothin impossible rite?rite! jus made my temp time-table awhile ago, shall be disciplined and follow it thru.. wasted enuff time alr, so gotta do dmg control!! haha =D

thanin left ytd, so sad.. its so nice to haf his company again.. oh wells all gd things muz come to an end eventually.. nvm i'm sure we'll see him again soon =D his stay wasnt one of the best this time, guess its due to the rush and the effort made by everyone to please each other.. however its nonetheless, fun and memorable..

recently had so much fun with the rhyas, nice to see them again aft so long.. though sad dat i wasnt able to see some ppl =( aww absence really does make the heart fonder.. hahaha weird kinda feelin =P okie time to end the bloggin session.. still haf stuff to do before i slp =D

oooh guess wad

2005-07-21T00:16:00.000+08:00

oooh guess who i saw today?! haha dun tell u, secret.. shhhh~ =P

anyway thanin is finally back in s'pore.. so happy, the gang waited for him for so long =) fetched him frm the airport and went to ping's hse to change and bathe as usual =P aft dat kept the grp company by goin to plaza sing den to cine.. played lan too, and ate pasta mania =) nice nice haha.. i'm happy as long as thanin is happy =D spent the whole day out, now feelin tired and my mind is busy thinkin of lotsa stuff.. tmr is racial harmony day u know hahaha =) oh wells startin to go hyper and nonsensical.. oh ya, new resolution.. i muz be more sensitive to ppl's feelins!! but cannot be too sensitive =D hahaha..
aww i jus luv life~

mission 2 complete

2005-07-18T21:27:00.000+08:00

finally mission completed successfully =) talked to sarah and cleared the air.. finally, took me sucha freakin long time haha.. useless guy~ dunno how to describe how i'm feelin now, a mixture of happiness and sadness?? i dunno, oh watever =P its over and done with and dats jus fine with me.. as long as shes happy and i'm happy. anythin goes =D still feelin stupid however, for all the stupid actions and ideas i had.. how much more silly can a guy get?? oh wells.. okie closed chapt, all wells now i guess and i really hope.. if all was jus superficial den i can jus go bang my head once more =P

thank u everybody for bein sucha great help in all ways hahaha.. jus talked to thanin over skype, really lookin forward to him now =) and now dat i haf sth less to fret and worry abt, maybe i can concentrate more on other stuff.. haha but oh dear i lost my motivation along the way =P okie off to bed now, talkin to sarah was strenous.. dunno how many brain cells she killed alr, not addin the sudden increase of blood pressure hahaha =P but it was no doubt nice to hear her voice again.. nite thanin =) gd luck for tmr and see u on WED! =D

wad to do abt sarah?

2005-07-17T18:31:00.000+08:00

woke up today wondering what i should do.. was thinking long and hard the whole morning but made no move what so ever.. the more i thought about what to do, the more stupid it seems.. sick of all these stuff, shall just walk to the front door and knock, to let myself in.. no point trying to find a open window and climb in.. let's just pray and hope that the door will not be slammed in my face, cuz it will hurt.. oh wells, misson 1 will begin at 9pm 17/7/05 =) go bingshun go~!! jiayou hahahah~

ytd..

2005-07-10T12:46:00.000+08:00

wo xiang qian yi bu,

ni tui hou yi bu,

wo zai xiang qian liang bu,

ni jiu tui hou si bu..

xiang yao jie jin ni,

dan shi bei ni jian qi de qiang dang zhu..

wondrous effect

2005-07-04T00:37:00.000+08:00

jus came back frm playin lan with beng.. so fun, it was like sth worthwhile finally aft a long day of slpin and idlin..rushed back by taxi to talk to thanin but he was alr aslp.. all becuz of beng dat dumdum who asked me to wait for the stupid bus =( thanin seemed to haf sth impt to talk to me abt.. so sorry thanin, i was out havin fun when u needed me to be dere.. make up to u tmr? =) kinda surprised jus now.. received a msg frm sarah, so rare alrite.. it was nonetheless a nice surprise =) certainly cheered me up alot, though its jus a thank u msg hahaha =P suddenly everythin frm sarah seemed so precious, guess its becuz shes been so outta my life for so long.. same for thanin and darwin too, every single thing is so very much treasured.. i think i'll even frame up jus a strand of their hair haha =P oh wells, missin ppl who sweetens my life like honey..darwin boy u betta read this man! dun say i forget u!! =D

hmm kinda in serious trouble again.. the situation in my so called family had worsen.. shucks i dun really give a damn abt them but i do give a hell of a damn abt myself and my future.. since i cant live with them ya i gotta get out and i gotta support myself? haiz last yr in my sec life and this gotta happen.. life is so full of surprises indeed.. hell no am i gonna give up!! hurdles like this kinda make my life interestin =) think i'll go to my aunt and teachers for help first and get some advice before i make any decision.. sad but ya, family like the one i haf is not suitable for me -shruggs-

wad a day~

2005-07-01T23:54:00.000+08:00

today is marist youth day.. kinda fun i muz say, jus regret not bein able to get as wet as i wanted to =( haha dats all abt it le la, lazy to bring out the details and stuff.. aft dat went to play pool with my class ppl, so sian.. hahaha shyt sound too haolian but heck la they really kNs wad! haha came back and slept like a pig..

jus now while i was surfin the net and playin some online games, i kept havin interestin scenarios abt someone.. so funny, ya but it will nv happen de la.. fantasy~ but it will seriously be nice if it cld happen.. too bad i need to haf courage to make it happen and sadly courage is not my strong attribute -shruggs- guess i've been thinkin too much abt dat person le la, time to stop??maybe.. =P

hahaha i said i wanna study but ever since dat day i saw sarah and jingying i've nv touched my bks =P oh shucks, muz pull myself tgt!! oh ya thanin went missin today, so i didnt get to talk to him over the mic.. bet its feelin so lonely like me.. lonely~

-shruggs-

2005-06-30T23:00:00.000+08:00

hmm dunno wads up with today.. kinda sux-ed.. well heck la, muz be another of those moody shyt days again -shrugs- it will be fine eventually.. its been slpin in class day aft day, kinda weird whyy only durin certain lessons.. maybe i jus didnt try hard enuff, no motivation ba.. tmr's MSHS marist youth day, gonna be sucha borin time again i guess =(

ever since i got the damn mic i've been talkin to darlin thanin every min we can afford =) kinda fun and its so nice to hear him again.. esp now when i got dat knot to untie.. best listenin ear and advicer to me =) thanks thanin.. still havin dat knot stuck dere, dunno wad to do.. sld i or sld i not?? reality or fantasy?? tough nut to crack -shrugs- my beloved twin gave me my present today, so unexpected.. a plushie?which is a turtle? hahaha luv it man, kinda cute and its very nice to touch =D thanks cheryl.. ya but turtle??haha not very appropriate at this moment but oh wells i still luv it anyway.. twin wrote me a letter in place of a card, so sweet of her.. thanks for showin u care cheryl, a rainbow comin up if u get wad i mean =D

while slpin today, i had a weird kind of dream.. more like a self-relfection limbo state.. found out how much i had changed unwittingly.. some for betta some for worse, anyway its an overall gd change la =) ahh comment to make, i hate to be mature.. frm today onwards i duwan act or be mature le haha.. like sermin says it cannot be learnt and ya i'm not borned with dat attribute in me! so ya haf to say byebye to some ppl, cuz i know they cant stand my immaturity =( so sadd.. i really luv to haf them u know?but oh wells, life liddat.. -shrugs-

sarah~!!

2005-06-29T21:42:00.000+08:00

so happy today!! finally met sarah aft so long.. kinda missed her lots u know?ya u know hahaha..all thanks to jingying who made it all possible =) all becuz sarah said dat she is a 2-in-1 package -__-'' anyway all was well except for the long wait.. so excited to see sarah and jingying again, it seemed so long since i seen them, esp sarah dat dumdum =P

returned my library fines today while waitin for those dumdums and walked ard the mall.. it was so borin can?? esp the library, so small and so little bks.. but well wad do u expect?it cant be helped too anyway.. haha wad a happy day it was today =) also, i found out wad i need to do le.. sad but ya some things cannot be avoided -shruggs-

haha i luv thanin!! he is sucha gem.. thanks thanin =D
ppl do u know, sarah grown fatter!! so ke ai~ hahaha..
jingying and sarah got me a super nice bdae present too, best i had so far =) gonna treasure it like mad =P
okie shall go off now, cant find my beloved hist textbk =( shall go try findin them again~

for a special someone =)

2005-06-27T18:34:00.000+08:00

woohoo~ today's the start of sch aft the 1mth june hols, kinda gd i think =) was thinkin durin class jus now, abt wad i wanna do for a special someone.. whether its to make up to dat special someone or jus to make dat special someone happy and of cuz for myself la.. thot of so many stuffs, dunno where to start too haha.. but wad i gonna do i wun regret and i'll make it worthwhile =)

think i got over the secret let out thingy alr.. though not totally at ease yet, but well its a matter of time.. hahaha was considerin whether i sld take up xiaojun's suggestion, but nahs, i'm too shyy and i haf no guts.. maybe secretly yes, pai seh hahahah =P shyt i'm so coward -___-''

okie first thing on the list, go study!! haha realised if i'm gonna take up xiaojun's suggestion i need to be as intelligent as possible first.. however this is only a precautionary measure =P haha so ya i'm not doin anythin, anyway i dun think i got any chance to do anythin also..okie study!!

i let out a big secret

2005-06-25T23:43:00.000+08:00

haiz.. shyt, i let out a big secret i kept inside me for so long today.. damn i'm so vexed now, the secret cannot be let out de.. sldnt haf been so stupid as to say it lor.. if i'm bloggin it, its obvious enuff to see how its affectin me!!!!!!!! =( maybe i sld jus heed xiaojun's advice and jus do it.. be open and i wun feel so troubled.. so worried i will jus lose it all, it jus dawned on me how dum i was =( ~ troubled~

sweet song i created!!

2005-06-01T18:19:00.000+08:00

If you want to know if I'm the right guy
Jus close your eyes, and lie in my arms
If you feel secure, you know I'm the one
If you still fear and if you're unsure

You'll know that I'm not the right guy for you...

awww.. so sweet!! who is the brilliant writer??i wanna know!!

failed chi Os..

2005-05-30T23:01:00.000+08:00

failed my chi Os.. wasnt able to fully complete paper1, wrote finished both zuo wen and ying yong wen but didnt had enuff time to check the dictionary for words dat i dunno how to write, resultin in many blanks.. was stuck at the ying yong wen for too long i guess, dunno how to write.. did badly for paper 2, my zao ju was like horrible and i'm not sure i did well for li jie wen da.. only know how to write 1 word for the tian xie han zi, forgot the rest.. only remembered jus before i stepped out of the hall, so dum of me.........

i luv chi~

2005-05-26T13:48:00.000+08:00

i luv chi~ wo ai hua wen~

yay~ i luv chi~ wo i hua wen!! ya ritez... -___-'' anyway aimmin for an A1 and a min of a B3, workin hard to achieve dat!! got myself 2 chi teachers too, ms sarah ong mei shan lao shi and ms ng jing ying(mew) lao shi.. to betta my chances hopefully.. dats the gd news, bad news is i cant contact either to set the date and venue to start lesson!!! really pinnin all my hopes on them alr, with their help i haf confidence i can get an A! however, on my own i fear i cant even get a C... =( wheres my lao shi's??~

wo ai hua wen~ i luv chi~

sickenin chi Os

2005-05-23T20:39:00.000+08:00

i feel so half-dead.. i cant study chi and do the damn papers.. me bein lazy is not a bloody factor rite now lor, the prob lies in me not bein able to comprehend wad the hell is the freakin qns wantin frm me!! how the hell do u do the chi papers? the whole day is like so wasted, not becuz i'm been slackin off and all but becuz i feel like deres no progress watsoever~!! crapp~

wo yao nu ren~

2005-05-23T13:11:00.000+08:00

i'm bored~ its so borin studyin chi!! sian..
ya fine i'm lazy too..

hate to be cooped up at home, its so dum~ deres a bright sun out dere waitin for me to bask in its wonderful rays!! and i really need a good stretch.. feel so uncomfortable and uneasy not bein able to work my body, dun like sittin down all day.. =(

chi Os (1)

2005-05-21T19:56:00.000+08:00

chi Os are comin~ so excitin =P hahaha.. been doin alot of readin but nv learn the words and their meanin, so dum ritez?ya so i'm gonna start learnin the words (ci yu) and the meanins today!! doin practices also, haf lotsa practice papers frm charmaine.. so muz as well use ritez?? ya use..

finally got back all prelim(1) papers.. haha did so badly =P but well last min work, so to hell with it =) so proud of myself!! did super well for humanities hahaha.. okie this time round language is kinda bad, however no worries.. becuz i'll go I LUV CHI!! and I LUV ENG!! everyday 24/7 haha =P failed all math and all sci, damnit so dum!! guess if i made it to a JC, i'll take total arts =) but dats if i ever get my L1R5 to be below 20 la.. hafta go for PTM but den sorry lor my parents arent goin =) whyy? let me explain. i study they study?(i)my prob their prob?(mine) so too bad they arent goin and dun think any teachers wanna see my parents also hahaha =P

okie i'll go study now and slack abit~ =D

sec4 prelim1 results day1

2005-05-16T23:32:00.000+08:00

wad a day.. filled with mixed feelins~

got back my papers today =) eng, chi, hist,chem and emath.. failed 3 passed 2.. failed eng and chem and math, so impossible ritez?? both my best subs ever since i know them sia.. chem it was kinda expected, didnt really study for it.. jus went thru the basics.. eng!! fail nehh.. wth, depressin.. seriously bingshun NV fail eng before!! fuck sia fail until liddat.. first time can.. eng also can fail, go commit suicide betta.. piangz hear pain, kena scoldin frm pApA ragu somemore.. basket, like i not sad enuff liddat.. still can come tell me he so disappointed becuz i'm the only one he expected an a1 for this paper.. ask him go jump also la~ math is so dum.. failed becuz i so careless and paper 2 i dunno how to do.. how sickenin.. nvm i'll get at least a 65 for prelim 2.. dats a promise to lala loh and myself!!

proudies of the day~!!

chi first!! hahaha i passed!! all thankz to my ke ai and not very amusin teacher PAN XU and his stupid crappy chi paper techniques and of cuz sarah!!! hahaha.. i basically managed to pass and get a b4 i think becuz of my compo, and guess who taught me how to write chi compo?? i got a 31 k!! its like so not bingshun =P anyway still not gd enuff.. wait for sarah's exam to be over den i go bug her to teach me how to lengthen the compo hahaha.. hmm talkin abt chi, my oral not as gd lehh.. nv get distinction, 2 more marks to distinction =( sld really start callin jingying up and chit-chat le haha..

hist~ omg so rawkz can?? stupid tan-chin, bluff me sia..when she first came, she gave me the u failed again look.. i was like oh shyt.. den to confirm my suspicions, i stopped her frm enterin class and asked her abt it, she told me no c6!! i was like fuck, den duwan go class le.. but she literally pull me into class.. basket give out my paper last too, somemore make big big announcement~ hahaha guess wad i got?! a B3!!!! hahahaa.. so happy can?? sld see tan-chin face, beamin like nv before.. hahaha first time in class i talk and talk she also nv scold, still can smile at me wor.. i'm so proud!! i got the highest marks for source-based qns 3 and structured part 1 =D hahaha.. only disheartenin thing is i lost to keith by 2marks.. cant stand him, so stucked up and arrogant.. haolian got study la.. but den study so hard jus to win me by 2marks, i last min study also can get b3 wor =P guailan abit haha.. best reward of the day btw =) dat time dunno which dumdum say i'll be along the line of failure.. i really wonder who?

gonna start workin on my Os le.. cannot slack~ so motivated now, miracles can happen to ppl who work for it =) so melise dun sad la, altho yes u wasted alot of my time but den u really worked hard la, so dun worry so much amath surely get a b3 and above de =P hahaha okie shall finish my plan and go slp.. nitenite~

tired and bored

2005-05-15T22:31:00.000+08:00

tired and bored.. its really hard readin chi.. been out almost all day helpin melise wang min shi with her amath.. do so many sums le, den at the end of the day she tell me she got ans sheet... -___-'' shua wo~ anyway dats not impt la, jus hope she can rmb wad i told her and dun forget her formulas.. i muz also pray she wun be as careless as today.. dun ask for much, she pass can le hahaa..

ouch~ my arm and back is so achin.. cuz ytd i went a badminton-ing.. finally aft so long =) but i think i strained my back, hope nothin awry will happen.. ytd was really great, was so long since i had a nice badminton match.. it was with a guy called bryan, met him ytd first time too.. i wun say on par, i say betta den me.. hahaha last time i had such a nice game was with darwin and frens.. miss those times.. seriously enjoy sports, or rather things dat can really make me involve every muscle in my body.. like to sweat it out and all =) sadly most of my frens arent really the sporty kind of ppl.. awww sad =( however i still haf as much fun!!

lotsa things on my mind now.. so many things i wanna do, but i jus dun haf enuff guts or confidence to do it.. weaklin~ hahaha haiz, not the very leader kind of person la, rather blur blur type, follow specific orders only.. so dum~!! anyway i think i really sld get myself a gf!! so many things to settle, its gonna be gd if i haf someone to do them for me =P gals are really gd at such stuff u know??? prob is, who wld?? stupid scientist.. they sld invent a program or a robot dat is a replica of gals.. liddat ppl like me who haf no gf wun suffer =P

tmr collectin back papers le.. wow, lets see min L1R5 ---> 38?? hahaha max ---> 52
nvm, wun let this get me down.. shall use it as a big big motivation to do betta!! i'm capable of so many rubbish, so definitely i can study too!! =P now jus concentrate on chi~ impt k!!

bored so here i am~

2005-05-13T15:23:00.000+08:00

haha i'M bored~ listenin to Lonely by Akon now.. hahaha nice song =) still waitin for my naruto and prince of tennis to finish d/l-ing, haiz so long.. hmm supposed to be studyin now?? haha but too lazy no mood too..
chi jus isnt my style~ hahaha i rmb i used to like chi alot, was quite a pro =) well it was all becuz of a gal hahah so dum.. nvm ovver le, dats was like pri sch?? now is sec sch?? oh shucks my life durin pri sch roX and my life durin sec sch is so bland.. how nice if i can be so carefree and bask in the company of gals again~ gals company sometimes are jus so gd.. haha cuz they basically tend to everythin else ard u, all u ever need to do is to relax and enjoy =P however, gals are not as fun as guys.. now i know whyy charmaine wanna be bisexual le haha, wanna let ppl take care of her go find her gf den wanna haf lotsa fun go find her bf.. so shiok can?? =P but not my style again haha.. anyway fallin in luv is dum unless the person u like, like u as well and u can be tgt la.. if not its jus plain wastin of time and increase ur bloody stress lvl~

argh!! shyt sia study too much history~ everythin i say and think now i give both sides of view, do comparison and do linkage.. basket, still ask myself wad is purpose.. hahaha dumdum me~ this yr dunno got wad DSA, so frustratin.. i no skill no talent how to use it sia?? den everybody else can i cannot.. damnit stupid JC excercise.. so pek chek lor, haiz.. unless the JC want ppl who can crapp rubbish all day long and haf sudden bursts of craziness la, i surely join de.. top list somemore~ =P hahaha so dum.. haiz think my future is bleak sia.. hahaha but everyone expects me to do well!! wth how??hahah.. i wonder whyy, my relatives believes i will follow my sis and go VJ and my pri sch teachers and frens believe dat i can go top JCs.. CRAZY~ haha JC is a place for ppl with high IQ and high EQ.. not for ppl with low IQ and low EQ( which is me!) haha i feel like startin a philosophy dat ppl with follow.. it will be called bing-ism!! den my words for my followers will be : live ur life like my life and u will be happy and lucky! hahaha so dum~

haha decided to listen to sermin jiejie's advice!!

- read mornin huggs and nite huggs

- memorise as many words as i can

- listen to chi news whenever i can

hahaha liddat my chi Os paper 2 pass le =) so clever~ -pats my own head- okie seriously muz get started if not i'm nowhere jus talkin.. paper 1 muz wait for sarah le.. hahaha go bug her once her exams over to teach me how to write the darn zhuowen.. den shun bian everyday go find jingying chit-chat haha, liddat chi oral sure get distinction!! hahaha jingying chi so profound, i scared i dun understand wad she say again =P

the ups and downs`

2005-05-11T23:57:00.000+08:00

for the readin pleasure of sermin (GOH), wei yuan (GOH) and melise (regular), i'm finally updatin.. thank u gals, for makin an attempt to come to my blog =)

today was my final paper, history~ wow i sure did work hard for this paper.. well had my prelim1 the past wk too, basically studied everythin the day before.. realised how little i knew and how much i need to know in so short a time.. it was hard but i still managed to.. jus cross my fingers and hope to pass =) dun expect much anyway.. last min, wad to expect? haha.. however, i really hope to get c6 for history.. it was the only paper i really put in my utmost effort.. didnt slp, only doze off while studyin for abt an hr or so??stressed.. did it for my dear history teacher, mrs tan-chin and myself of cuz.. i know dat she really jus hope dat i can scrape a pass and so did i.. c6 it is, haha but its gd enuff.. frm her a1 list drop until f9 list, certainly isnt a gd thing for both her and me.. haiz lets hope heaven is kind to me and pay off my efforts =P

life certainly haf its fair share of ups and downs.. been so disturbed by the fact dat i cant establish wad i call a famliy.. i jus cant get along with my 'family members'.. maybe its me who isnt puttin enuff effort or expressin myself well enuff.. however, no matter wad i still believe dat it takes 2 hands to clap and hence the fault dun lie within me alone.. really now i cant be bothered.. i jus need income and my studies to do well, the rest can jus fuck off.. started on my study mode, not goin to let it go back to slackin mode =) go bingshun go~

today was one of the betta days i had so far recently.. altho the mornin was full of worries and tension, it began to dissipate aft the hist paper started.. only regret was i didnt manage my time well enuff and thus did not complete the paper =( had a long talk with tan-chin, nice to be able to let go of some burden.. thankz mrs tan-chin, u had been sucha gem.. apologised to mr ho, which i offended on impulse haha.. sld haf rmbed wad sarah said, if not i wun hafta offend ppl, sorry sarah it jus so happened to slip my mind.. fortunately mr ho was really good abt it and let it go, phew~ went for chi oral, well it was not bad i guess.. gave the best i cld, hahah which is very little considerin my standard of chi and den went home.. tried to slp~ but some idiot upstairs had to do some drillin and hammerin.. idiotic`` watched the anime i d/l-ed and went off to meet wei yuan aftwards.. she was late! haha =P had a rather interestin fun time tgt.. talked alot too.. altho i feel i was ramblin abt some bullshit and lotsa rubbish whole day, dun really know wad i said.. it jus seem all too nonsensical~ well, bingshun wad! dats the kind of thing u can only expect frm him =P jus hope i didnt bore weiyuan..

met at --> city hall
went to --> raffles city --> suntec city --> orchard road --> kembangan
did --> shoppin for food and clothes and jewellry

it was really fun and nice!! had a great, happy time`` AHHH~ so carefree and relaxed.. thankz weiyuan =) too lazy to continue alr, so gonna end here =P haha cyaz ppl~

feel so wasted..

2005-04-30T22:05:00.000+08:00

i felt the time spent today was so wasted.. whole day not doin anythin constructively worthwhile.. hate to haf my time wasted liddat, dun like to be in a state of limbo.. i dunno how to describe how i'm feelin now, its a mixture of frustration and anger.. not at ppl but at myself, for allowin myself to waste my day away..

qi, u may think dat if i think dat today is not wasted, it wun be wasted.. however, the truth is it is alr wasted.. i dunno how to explain to u, its hard to put it in words.. i'm definitely not angry with sarah and jingying too, whyy sld i be??and not dat i dun enjoy the company today, its jus dat i dun feel dat wad we did today is worth my while.. to me its jus plain senseless wastin time and more time, where i can really do sth worthwhile or meaningful.. so sorry~

hate it when i cant keep my word and i hate it when ppl cant keep theirs.. i always feel dat if u can say it, u betta be able to do it.. it doesnt haf to be a promise wadsoever, it's jus wadever u say - make it count.. sometimes u forget wad u say or sometimes circumstances dun allow u to keep ur word, dat can be overlooked.. however dun u think sth can always be done to make up for it?? by not keepin ur word, its like destroyin the trust ppl gave u, do u think its worth it??

wasnt able to celebrate sarah's bdae as promised, but well it doesnt really matter alr.. will make up some how, see how too.. jingying was supposed to give me my new blog layout today too, but i guess she is too busy with her sch work to do it la.. cant blame, exams comin and all.. altho i really feel its sucha pity.. wanted to dedicate the new blog layout to my hamster, becuz the layout was sucha cute hamsterly one.. also i wanted to announce her death and wish sarah happy bdae dere.. nvm, i can always stay with the old layout.. old stuff isnt all dat bad afterall.. well, my hamster died some time ago.. abt 2 days when i came back frm SYA camp.. she died peacefully though i doubt happily.. i wasnt dere when she died, and when she was alive i didnt really give her enuff TLC which she deserves.. all i did was to give her the basic attention she needs..

-i'm really so sorry for bein sucha irresponsible owner.. was too busy with my own life den with urs, which was equally impt.. i know i sld haf spent more time with u, esp the last 3mths of ur life where i knew ur end was near.. u muz haf been lonely aft i stopped playin with u everyday like before.. for 9mths i haf been playin with u, however the last 3mths i wasnt ard.. so sorry for not bein dere~ still luv u as much as ever, byebye my cute little adorable winter white-

will stop bloggin for awhile now.. bloggin used to be an outlet for me to share my joy and divide my sorrows.. but dat was before, now i dun think it serves any much purpose.. sld leave it as it is~ cyaz~

wad a mess

2005-04-30T12:30:00.000+08:00

today is sarah's birthday.. Happy Birthday Sarah~ well the rhyas are supposed to be celebratin for her later, but the latest news i heard was dat it will most likely be cancelled.. cuz sarah cldnt make it.. oh wells, early know i dun bother re- schedulin everythin at the last min to make sure i can be dere at her celebration.. now my whole nite is super free, guess i'll be stayin at home and study and study and study.. prelims1 started alr, so stress.. sick and all alr, with my skin peelin frm the previous sunburn.. so sickenin~ horrible way they peel, cant they jus drop once and for all and stop annoyin me??had my eng paper 1 ytd, the qns given was so lame and wad i wrote was so crapp.. there goes my b3 and above for eng.. will defintely kill myself if i dun get 25 /30 and above for my compo.. not much morale now for my prelims.. think i will flunk for sure, i jus realised everythin i know is like superficial? no mood to study too, aft spendin so much money.. the hard earned money gone jus liddat, pinches me hard.. thinkin of how i can earn it back~ anyway haf tuition later, maybe aft tuition i go play pool or sth.. itchy to play pool and de-stress seriously.. cyaz~

worries worries

2005-04-26T23:05:00.000+08:00

today is a day full of worries haha.. so much to worry abt yet so little thing to do abt them.. some worries cant even be worked upon =( dats very saddenin indeed.. went to sch today with my sunburnt body, and hell it hurts like mad!! luckily the cream provided by the doc reduced the pain, phew.. not a bad day in sch, haha didnt really get into trouble except bein late and heehee gotta call my mum up.. so glad i didnt miss any math lesson too =) slept durin physics cuz ya i dun like sharon tan and her attitude.. besides, i dun really enjoy doin her wksts.. worries worries~

Worry 1: felix is really in a bad state today man.. he came to sch with a bad mood and he was definitely sad, his face showed it all.. he was not his usual self, so quiet and all.. hope he is ok.. however if he really betrayed weiyuan i think he asked for it.. altho i'm on weiyuan's side i still believe dat felix nv betray weiyuan.. innocent unless proven guilty ppl!! not gonna assume, cuz assumin makes an ASS out of U and ME~

Worry 2: weiyuan seems to be like gettin over it and finally standin up again.. however i dunno whether dats true inside her.. shes so fragile inside man, dunno whether shes really ok.. she's so innocent lor, duwan to see her break down inside cuz she really really luv felix alot.. haiz if only i cld know her inner self and do sth to help make her feel betta...

Worry 3: sarah dumdum been so busy with her guitar recently becuz of SYF.. exams are commin too, dunno whether she can take it mar haha.. her practices are like so long and she is so easily tired.. anyway this isnt much of a worry la haha.. she can take care of herself cant she??shes sucha 'BIG' gal le =) oh ppl i've jus been sacked as mornin alarm clock haha =P so sad ritez?sacked w/o pay worr.. now i dunno whether she can wake up on time notz haha, but i guess she can la.. altho shes a piggy, she got her aunt ard so no fear =) see so worry 3 is redundant.. oh dots hahaha -__-''

Worry 4: our ke ai de mew mew~ jingying gal gal is now super uncontactable.. she really is in need of a new hp! need her to be contactable cuz she plannin sarah's bdae celebration and i need her help to find a suitable pressent for our dear tortle gal gal.. this celebration muz not fail lor, haha one and only de.. however i think will fail la cuz got me ard haha =P also i dunno wad to get for sarah.. =( shyt sia.. however gonna take sermin's advice and go to dunno wad perlini silver haha.. see i can rmb wor!

Worry 5: my exams are comin and i know nothin except half bucket full~ oh great man haha, mid yr is like 15% of my prelims??? no discipline -slaps slaps bingy- haiz really muz go temple slp with buddha le la =( however, i wun give up!! hahah betta late den nv mar, still can chiong all the way one!! hahaha last min stuff has always been abit of my forte =)

arghhh.. forgot wad i wanna blog again le.. hahaha siann always forget.. nvm guess this is abt it all le =) give myself well deservin hugg -huggs self- ahhhh so nice~ =D

sun burnt~

2005-04-25T10:54:00.000+08:00

today nv go sch haha cuz i tio sun burnt until super jialat.. dunno how i kena one -___-'' i was the only one dere who doesnt show any signs of bein burnt lor, dunno how come end of the day become one of the reddest.. hahaha shyt sia, gonna haf to miss the badminton finals today.. however die die still gotta go get sarah's present =) haiz also dunno whyys cant get angry with dat dumdum for long de, altho still super pek chek.. now waitin at home for my pApA to come back, so dat he cld bring me to see the doc and get a MC.. meanwhile, i shall go think of wad to get for dat dumdum.. hahaha i nv know wad to get for gals, whyy cant she be a bOY?!

crapped~

2005-04-23T21:51:00.000+08:00

my day today is so fuckin spoilt.. went out initially to keep celina company, however aft lunch, celina, henry, ah beng and i went to search for an ideal gift for sarah's bdae.. simply becuz we had nothin on hands to do and henry dun really haf much time to get sarah a gift.. though we walked alot and the journey was abit borin at times, it was still rather happenin overall.. finally ah beng chanced upon a choc which comes with a bear of the 365 days at OG.. excited,we tried in vain though to look for sarah's bdae date and of cuz jingying's.. went to many different places to search for it aft we realised dat OG did not haf sarah's bdae date.. so sad~ =( we really wanted to get her dat.. too bad our efforts werent appreciated, sadder still~ =( aft dat celina gotta go off to meet her fren, hence we decided to send her dere anyway we had nothin to do again.. on the way, we decided to try our luck to meet sarah and jingying since we are goin to their area.. cldnt contact jingying, cuz she was in tuition.. managed to contact sarah though.. met alvin too as he booked out abt the same time we reached.. was interestin to hear him talk, funny cute guy.. met up with sarah while we were waitin for a cab with alvin.. dats when the whole prob start man.. said hi, dun even look at me watsoever.. nvm guess she nv hear, so ignore her first.. feelin hungry decided to get some food, so we went to the food court upstairs as suggested by sarah.. she said she wanted to eat chicken rice.. on the way up, saw dat she looked extremely beat, asked her whyy, and i felt a punch in a face.. gave me a sickenin attitude right in face.. fine, bad mood had guitar whole day dun blame u.. went up found seats, and talked some rubbish.. told her abit abt our day and was sarcas abit as i was feelin so fed up alr.. aft awhile, henry asked her to go get her food first.. wanted to go order for her seein dat she is so tired, she totally ignored me and offereed to help henry and ah beng get their food.. cool huh, another punch in the face.. thankz arh sarah.. heyy if u find me so irritatin and u dun like the sight of me tell me, i cant promise to keep out of ur sight but i will do my best to keep out of ur way alrite.. my attitude and personality sux i know, i'm neither a gentlemen nor a gangster too, however i see no need to be treated liddat lor, FREN~ asif i really treat u dat bad liddat.. maybe the fault is with me, maybe i'm too petty and unreasonable i dunno.. but i do know i hate the way u are givin me attitude now!

sarah again

2005-04-23T00:14:00.000+08:00

this entry is gonna be soo sarah..

jus finished talkin to sarah.. STRESS~ she is jus too " CUTE " for me to handle -___-'' if i ever get high blood pressure i know who is the one who caused it sia.. (sarah ong mei shan)
anyway feel so angry and irritated with myself now.. feel so stupid lor, think so much for her den like so wasted kNs.. i sacrifice alot too wor!! this kind of feelin sux man.. ouch so hurtful too!! i can hear my heart go piang~ haha dots..

today is kinda shitty.. felix made me so dulan in the mornin again lor.. drop my pen~ i know its only a pen and i sldnt be so bastardly la but got sentimental value lor the pen.. i know its jus a normal ball-point pen, no big deal wad.. moreever its empty le.. its the person who got me the pen dat makes it special to me can?? small matter ritez?NO~ cuz the person who got me the pen is someone i treasure alot lor damnit.. the rest of the day was usual la except for the weekly assembly period.. =) super rawkz~ mr kwok made all the upper sec stay back, everybody was like 'wad the fuck is ur prob?' however, aft all the lower sec had gone, he announced dat the reason he wanted us to stay back was to actually get supporters for our sch's badminton team.. MSHS badminton 'B' boys got into the finals tgt with monfort and they are to fight it out to determine who is in first placin and who is in second.. monfort was like sendin 4classes of supporters??and mshs was sendin 22ppl -_-'' ahhaha my class roX, we are the first to announce dat the whole of 4I is goin and dat start the ball rollin~ slowly all the rest of the upper sec classes started followin our lead =) so cool lor~ hahah in the end the whole upper sec is goin to jurong east on mon to support our 'B' boys =)

GOLD for MSHS BADMINTION 'B' BOYS

GOLD for AHS GUITAR ENSEMBLE

JIA YOU~ = )

2005-04-21T22:54:00.000+08:00

haiz, MSHSCO got a silver for SYF~ =( wonder how did BDSCO do.. a heard frm my fren they got a silver too.. shucks it betta not be true.. cuz its so saddenin, aft practicin so hard they did not get a gold.. =( now i'm lookin forward to AHS guitar ensemble~ they betta achieve a gold man, if not sarah no mood to celebrate bdae le.. how can ritez?? haha go kidnapp the judges and threaten them =P AHS GUITAR ENSEMBLE JIAYOU~

hahaha so delighted, havent get my canin yet and i dun think i ever well =) guess my DM didnt want to punish me la, oh so nice of him!! phew, last yr le haha nv kena canin super lucky =P today got 2.4km run.. sianz nv go also hahaa, dunnit go.. basket, the PE department dun allow me to participate.. say if i'm seen within 100m radius of the stadium i'll receive disciplinary action -_____-'' abit angry with myself today.. last 4min of hist lesson and i fell aslp, shyt sia.. bet mama yih min is angry with me de lor, aiya tmd.. somethin came over me today, i dunno whyy i suddenly offer to teach my class enemy chem -__-'' muz be still in a dreamy state haha..

tmd forgot wad i wanted to blog.. hahaha nvm =P oh ya jus add la, since i forgot the actual stuff i wanted to blog.. ah beng can be so ke ai sometimes man~ i miss xiaojun!! wheres dat dum gal?? aft tellin me she depress she jus disappeared.. hahah but no fear la, when she misses me she will come find me de =P great news too!! melise is startin to be jus as crazy and lame as me =) my disciple!! so proud haha~ miss ngeow too, no ngeow talk life abt dull.. and wheres my kenenth and qiqi??? idiotic couple, always cannot find them when i need them.. muz be go hide and rendevouz =P hahaha okie i'm crappin le, jus like celina.. celina recently like MIA again wor, sickenin gal haha always dun miss me, tmd.. talkin abt MIA, wheres jingying?? callin for MEWW~ hahaha lookin for missin cat!! oh dots, i'm supposed to stop! okie stop. - FULL STOP -

wah feel sucky..

2005-04-20T22:38:00.000+08:00

feel so sucky today sia.. so i sing - la la la - oh ya crapp -_-''

**Good Luck to BDSCO AND MSHSCO,

Gold with Honours for both = )**

no canin today for truancy, my dear DM refuses to cane me yet.. think he feels dat i'm not sufficiently tortured enuff.. tmd tmr betta cane lor, if he still not canin i'll make it a pt to create chaos for him.. haha machiam like my first sec3 yr liddat.. irritatin me like hell~

today is one of the rarest days, early release and most of the teachers not in sch.. feel so wasted~ haiz, this is insane la.. goin crazy if i continue to haf nothin on my hands to do.. no sports, no motivation, no drive.. study study study, confirm not consistent givin my character.. morever its tried and proven.. aft i finish a sub, i jus cant seem to get on to another one.. 1 sub per day = death for Os..

think too much, talk too much, slp too much.. guess i jus need some company or sth to keep myself occupied and smilin~ = ( -huggs self-

pressure~~

2005-04-19T21:00:00.000+08:00

- sittin on the fence, lettin the breeze touch my face.. overwhelmed by despair, i let myself fall over *thud* -

hmm immense pressure is buildin up in me, everythin i know this yr is like only superficial.. study study study i tell myself everyday but in the end also dunno study the com or study my books -___-'' haiz its so hard to start studyin.. = ( darn it really need someone to get me movin~ haiz..

tmr is jus so wonderful, first thing in the mornin i will be caned for truancy.. funny DM i haf, mon duwan cane, tues duwan cane, muz wait until wed den cane.. so long nv tio canin, this time surely very pain = ( however, haha i shall take it as gd exprience.. first time kena truancy case, or rather kena caught.. tmr got geog test too, dunno test wad also la haha.. heck la, dun study also can pass de, jus wun score nia.. =P nonetheless its a pass rite??haha..

today is so shyt.. mornin dun say, mood spoiler and time wasted.. DM too free la, muz make sure i'm the last to be entertained -__-'' sometimes he is jus sucha ass.. lessons went quite well aft dat though = ) even had mrs koh our VP come to class to give a talk, WOW~ thot dat was rather rubbish anyway.. when it came to the the last lesson which was physics, yeah well done sharon tan.. u did it again~ sorry lor pls stop thinkin u are britney spears, u are jus a bytch a slut a harridan to me.. scum of the female race~ for goodness sake, if u wanna play with attitude let me know.. i'll show u wad is real attitude, bytch~ now i'm in trouble too, my father took my $50 which i tried so hard to save and i dunno when he gonna return me.. liddat how to buy present and celebrate for sarah? smart move arh daddy.. -________-'' sians, always broke at the freakin wrong time..

luv darwin, though he is not in s'pore he still so ever encouragin = ) thankz darwin!! melise thankz too, for feelin sorry haha dots.. however dun get me a frog!! and u betta dun anyhow talk abt no. 27 k.. hahaha shhhh!

oh yawnz..

2005-04-19T06:23:00.000+08:00

yawnz~

females, they are weird...

yawnz~

bored and lonely worr

2005-04-16T22:45:00.000+08:00

hahaha omg, -pengz- ah beng's buddha song funny sia!! jus finished listenin to it, was really rollin on the floor laughin like mad.. laugh until i cannot do my hist revision haha =P damnit wad kind of song is dat?? amusin man~ today is like SOOOO borin and lonely la..in the end aft whinin to melise, i started to STUDY!! hahaha so WOW ritez?? yea though as usual i manage to slack abit here and dere =P born slacker haha.. anyway nv do my emath revision and hmwk i didnt know actually my emaths not bad wor hahaha.. i expect an A1 for emath lor, ahahah my first ever A1 for math wor and first sub this yr!! =) however, amath STILL SUX!! fuck it man, cant do a single sum.. still stuck at differentiation while everyone else is like into integration?? wah sianz =(

can i ask a favour?! yes i can =P hahaha.. IS DERE ANY KIND SOUL OUT DERE WHO WILL BE WILLIN TO SMS OR CALL ME EVER?YDAY AND REMIND ME TO STUDY AND MAKE SURE I DO?? pls pls pls~ seriously in need lor, damnit been like slpin like a pig everyday in sch and not doin any revision watsoever at home.. hahaha cuz i dun like to study alone la.. so borin lor, i cant stay at home and study!! unless no one's is at home la =) sadly dat day nv comes.. no one pei me study so lonely =( i know i will and can study once i start de, so i need someone to get me goin.. so...........WHO WILL??? -peers ard searchin intently-

tmr mornin got tuition~ lucky its JEAN not RAY.. RAY is like so pressure, JEAN is jus PRACTICE JIU HAO hahaha.. so i prefer JEAN!! =P can slack mar, RAY dun let me slack de =( betta dun be late again tmr haha, always late.. oh dots and to think dat i'm an ALARM CLOCK to sarah, hahaha i cant even wake myself UP!! insane muz be.. okie back to hist!! but first!! make sth to eat hahaha, hungry~~

dot dot dot

2005-04-14T20:35:00.000+08:00

doc report..

"u are physical fit, however ur fractured bone is still too soft.. i suggest u betta not do any vigorous or strenous activities.." well done arh, stupid quack.. go for every check up tell me same thing, dun let me break ur bone lor! super sianz alr la, next check up onwards duwan go le.. waste money ask a SPECIALIST to tell me i'm physically fit but still cannot do anythin..so dots lor -_-''

haiz, angry and pek chek with some idiot lor.. JERK sia!! still can give so much excuses to say dat its not the kind of endin he wants.. wad he proclaim dun even go with his actions lor, swine.. however cant blame la, i'm not in it i cant say or do much.. jus a by-stander lookin with anguish.. =(

well done, get our prelim1 time-table le.. great i know shyt and i'm supposed to be tested on it and get a distinction.. i'll be happy with jus a PASS, 50%?? sianz-ed, all the other sec 4 rhyas and sch frens like super hardworkin and studious.. not like me, like a wanderin lost sheep. MEHHH~~ hahaha diaoz.. today was shyt too, kena scolded for slpin twice!! best of all my chers came over to me and asked, " do u even know u are in sec4??" so sarcas..

tmr got SPORTS MEET!! hahahaha and i DUWAN TO GO!! haha goin to buy a MC~ duwan waste my time dere la, so hot and not interestin.. my sch ppl all so bastards and some so gu niang, kNs.. somemore first time in MSHS i'm not takin photos for the sch durin sports day, cuz my CCA bytch and i cannot see each other eye to eye.. anyway i go dere also redundant.. my house team is like every yr lose one lor hahahaha.. sad but true -shruggs- so throw face can??dun let me join la =P

ouch ouch my hand pain!! shyt sia dunno wad i do, hurt my hand again.. been super dreamy recently la, in class also day-dream de haha.. somehow or other i hurt my hand la, dunno how too dun ask me =) felix and jianyuan also hurt themselves today too!! hahah dumb ppl, go touch the window glass planes and cut their fingers.. sOO OUCH~ haha lucky they haf sucha gd and carin nurse like me to take care of their wounds =P

**MSG TO MS NG JING YING FRM AHS**
- 30th of APRIL, LAYOUT!!

haha stress jingying, dun think she can finish the layout by den too la.. got exams and all, maybe i sld like extend it for her??hmm under consideration =D

kNs dayy

2005-04-12T23:01:00.000+08:00

Woah~ wad a day..

hahaha it seems like every tuesday is AP bingshun day.. gave my fuckin physics teacher a fuckin attitude aft she gave me a fuckin attitude.. heck sia, complain to DM la.. not happy with me jus complain, unreasonable bytch.. aft walkin out of class, straight went to meet beng den go airport.. pJ has gone to australia, melbourne for a holiday.. supposed to send her off today but wasnt able to, cuz i was late and she had to go in early =(

hence, i spent the rest of my day with qiqi, kenneth and fifa.. yeah though i procrastinate again, well.. ya know i supposed to be doin my hmwk and study for test haha, however at this time too tired and lazy to do it le la.. the most tmr stay back lor haha.. got almost all the songs beng had in his com le, so happy hahaha =) it jus happened dat he haf almost all the songs i wanted see??haha..he helped me burn all into a cd wor, THANK YOU AH BENG!! oh finally touched maple again today at beng's hse too..

sheesh..wad a day haha so kNs.. drained and slpy, though i slept like SOOO MUCH today?? later betta dun dream of the same dream again.. been havin the same dream recently, jus with different ppl in it and doin and sayin different things, however the setting, startin and endin all the same.. so fuckin freaky and mentally strainin =( hmm wonder wad sarah will say when she ever happen to rmb i got a blog and come read this post..hahaha almost every para got vulgarities i think =P yes, but not fear!! shes not comin and she wun scold!! hahaha =P cheeky bastard~ME!!

wasted day

2005-04-10T22:36:00.000+08:00

haiz.. =( today was a super wasted day..

i really procrastinate a whole fuckin lot.. damnit, i really need someone to push me.. i jus dun haf discipline -shruggs- haha to think dat i always scold ppl for procrastinatin =P well at least i learnt sth in this mornin tuition and i bought my hp pouch =) so happy!! now i haf no worries abt scratchin my phone or sth liddat.. hopefully i muz add haha.. BING SHUN IS A LAZY DUMDUM~

so nice, haha melise is so NICE!! always entertain me de, haha.. surprisin wor, esp how i cld be so super irritatin when i'm hyper or bored =P miss jingying voice.. i wanna hear her call my NAME!! haha so shuang~=)
oooh stupid qiqi, go everybody's blogg say dun miss me and dun like me!! ouch so hurt.. i'm the cute and luvable baby bingy baobei lor!! how can dun like and dun miss me!! she muz be lyin hahahaha.. =P oh jialat haha i havent use the edited tong hua song in the mornin yet.. how the hell do u sing the song in the mornin sia??hahaha no voice no mood and so SLEEPY!! damnit dun tell me wasted effort.. nvm muz try to sing tmr mornin for sarah =) i'll kill her if she dun wake up but fall aslp instead~

oh tmr got sch how?? got tuiton how?? hahah nv do hmwk nc study.. sia la finish haha.. PON?? gd idea.. hahahaha =P okie off~

not bad a wk

2005-04-08T23:03:00.000+08:00

phew end of the wk again haha.. finally another break, altho i've been havin lots everyday alr =P lots of hmwk not done and lots of test failed.. oh dat sux but well, bingshun is lazy haha.. been kept awake by my class kopi-kia!! haha all thankz to his daily teh-tarik dat keep me awake for the whole day =) hahaha oh and becuz of his teh-tarik i was so free in class to let my mind wander off to the borin conver sarah and me always haf in the mornin.. so as i listened to the song TONG HUA in class, i edited the chorus =) its kinda lame but nonetheless still a tickle if u are in a gd mood.. i wanna put it up but i dunno how to use chi on the blog??also, i dunno blog can use chi de mar?? nvm haha willing to spread it ard, so if u want get it frm ME!! hahaha.. i think i can improve my chi liddat if i continue to edit song lyrics liddat u know??haha altho the edited lyrics are lame and sometimes nonsensical..

this wk made lotsa changes =) learnt much too!! as usual, lots of bad stuff happened too.. =(
- both my CCA teacher and i gave each other attitude during CCA, becomes an eventual separation forever!! dun give a damn anymore though haha, chairman or not i still command more respect =P
- accidentally injure my back again, damnit and shhh my family dunno haha.. jus hope its nothin serious and the doc wun spill any thing on this comin mon's check-up =)
- felix and weiyuan broke up =(
- i'm broke and officially unprepared for the comin Os too..

haiz few things on my mind for this wkend, wad to get for sarah for her comin bdae?? so stress, dun dare spend money in case not enuff.. cuz still not sure whether any party or sth liddat is planned for her bdae..solution?find jingying and ask =) xiaojun bdae comin soon too =( omg, haiz broke.. HMWK!! omg snowballed le hahaha.. shyt sia wad to do??lazy ppl like me is liddat de.. most impt de, revision plan still not out wor.. betta faster go make one =)

ppl havin their SYFs BEST OF LUCK!! GOLD WITH HONOURS FOR ALL OF YOU!! =) JIAYOU~

~xiaojun celina melise~

2005-04-04T22:30:00.000+08:00

boo~~~~~~~~~~

hihi ppl!! hahaha feel so gd today~ =) haha gonna write abt 3 beauties today!! a monster, another monster and yet another monster!! hahaha.. but first, i whine! =) dumdum sarah, always so cold and aloof towards me.. happy happy AP me somemore arh, SOO MEAN~ esp when i'm sucha nice cute and luvable boyy!! cant u be nicer to be abit??even if its's a tweeny bit i also happy la,kNs de U.. -bitez sarah- melise sOOOO nice, hahaha kept me company for half an hr jus now over the phone.. relieved me of utter boredom, best bds gal so far haha.. thankz wor melise =) oh oh oh, impt muz say!! jingying is the best ahs gal so far too!! hahaha.. she gave me a big friendly hugg and called my name~ =) for ppl who dunno, jingying's voice is specially made to call my name de! when she say my name, it sounds especially nice to hear~ hahaha..

okie story tellin time~

once upon a time there lived a cute and luvable boyy, his name was bingshun!! haha he owned 2 special rare hamsters.. named nanas-banana(CELINA) and little junny-jun-jun(XIAOJUN).. these 2 hamsters are very funny and lame, they come frm the a special breed of hamsters called the retardees =) both equally intelligent and pretty(they are shes,female).. however, nanas-banana was super LONG and little junny-jun-jun was super SHORT!!

nanas-banana : highly amusing and lame.. can laugh for nothin at any particular moment.. very active and super flexible!! very obedient and friendly, makes ppl happy and entertained~ bored easily too.. in long, hyper-friendly-nice-gal-of-the-block (best company in bored times and unbored times)

little junny-jun-jun: highly disturbing and lame and funny.. can laugh at anythin,anywhere,anytime (also w/o reason) easily tired and can morph (for eg: pig,tomato,ladybug,stalk) very disobedient and cheerful, makes ppl laugh~ bored easily too.. in short, crazy-gal ( best company at all free times)

bingshun specially bought this 2 hamsters to keep himself smile whole day long.. the hamsters luv playin tgt and doin lame crazy things.. it brings immense laughter to bingshun~ amazingly the hamsters can talk to him too, filling his life with crapp and more crapp.. altho crapp, it makes him laugh and stay forever happy!! for more info abt the 2 special hamsters, pls contact them at their own retardee hotline!!

nanas-banana ---> http://www.naananas.blogspot.com/
little junny-jun-jun ---> http://www.pigscrapboo.blogspot.com/

oooh okie earth to bingy, earth to bingy!!
hahaha melise!! i'm writin abt melise.. hmm melise, she is very NICE, very FRIENDLY, very HELPFUL!! hahaha can i say i'm lyin too?? melise is the best company u can get when u need one, but she always busy studyin or cannot keep u company de.. great fren to haf worr, altho she keeps wantin to know my secrets =P pian pian dun tell U!! hahaha.. okie advertisin for MELISE~

PRETTY gal frm BDS..

LOOKIN for HANDSOME BOYS with a PSLE T-score of 260 and above

muz be frm TOP SCHOOLS

PLS CONTACT HER AT : http://www.-dance-.blogspot.com/

hahaha misson accomplished for all 3 beauties!! so proudy of meself =) big huggs to meself -HUGGS-

moody~

2005-04-03T21:20:00.000+08:00

i'm feelin so moody.. everythin feels so sianz..

I DUN LIKE TO BE LONELY!!

I DUN LIKE TO BE DOWN, I WANT TO SMILE!!

so sadd.. yes i'm childish so? yes i believe in fairy tales so? yes i duwan to grow up so? life is so meaningless if u cant be happy and carefree.. whyy get bogged down by responsibilities and feelings dat makes u feel so moody??WHYY?? i rather be happy and carefree, haf a prob with dat den dats too bad for U! i'm SOOOO irritatin cuz i'm so lonely.. i want company~ i miss my hamster =( this world is so cruel, ppl out dere are surely sympathetic towards others.. i wanna scream, cant scream cuz there are ppl ard.. i wanna whine, cant whine cuz there are no ppl ard.. nvm whinin like a horsey now alr, all thankz to ownin a blog which nobody comes to.. so DEAD~ muz as well ask jingying to make a dark gloomy dead blog for me =( oh ya JINGYING!!!

DEADLINE FOR LAYOUT::

BEFORE 30th of April 2005

rmb k??i want to dedicate it to my hamster de..ppl who wants the TONG HUA MTV, can get frm me!! cuz i haf it le.. gonna give myself a big -HUGG- cuz i'm feelin exceptionally lonely and sad now.. totally down~ wheres the Tender Luvin Care (TLC) when i need it?? today jingying and ah beng has been the nicest to me.. so gratified =) beng helped me complete quest and jingying played maple with me and cheered me up by callin my NAME!!! =D

borin place~

2005-04-03T16:08:00.000+08:00

this blog is gettin to be very borin~

i'm gettin lazier too~

so sianz~

~cute and luvable baby bingy baobei~

-SMILES-

eeeee!! dun like ppl who give me empty promises

2005-04-02T23:28:00.000+08:00

heyy celina, xiaojun and melise.. sorry wor, still not abt u gals hahaha..dun worry comin soon de,a promise is a promise!! =)

so super super angry and pek chek with someone!! give me empty promises.. duwan to do wad i asked can say NO u know?? no need to lie too, duwan go can also say DUWAN de.. no difference frm ppl at MOE, liars who cant keep promises.. wonder whyy i trusted u in the first place too! saddenin.. =( and my heart goes - ouch ouch ouch - feel so dumdum~ all thankz to dat SOMEONE, i'm once again sooo pissed with myself again!! hurt sia.. OUCH~~~

wonder whyy so many ppl like to help dat someone too, so not fair.. evil~

pek chek

2005-03-31T20:21:00.000+08:00

arghh so pek chek.. first of all, blogger is havin some prob and i'm havin a super hard time tryin to blog.. next, MOE sux.. comin out with the first 3mths again dunno for wad, at such a wrong time too!! lastly i'm havin trouble with sarah!! wth lor make her angry ytd when she was alr angry with the sickenin MOE.. wah the kind of attitude she gives u when she is angry arh, can pengz sia..

MOE sld change their minister! so fickle minded, sld haf prepared for the change in JC calendars too wad..happy happy change wad they said, den treat it asif its ok.. pls lor, if the minister cant even keep his word den dun announce it in the first place la..givin empty promises = to no principles or moral values!! to think MOE says we muz learn CME, they need to go for a refreshment course too!! kaoz, is he stupid or is he stupid??

~IMPT NOTICE~

ppl pls take note.. the followin ppl,

SARAH ONG MEI SHAN

JONATHAN NGEOW SI MING

LIM BING SHUN

are only frens and will remain as frens until further notice..there are definitely no BGR or watsoever between any one of them.. all rumours are to be taken as fakes.. the only true facts are dat,

SARAH ONG MEI SHAN dun like JONATHAN NGEOW SI MING and hates LIM BING SHUN. also, JONATHAN NGEOW SI MING and LIM BING SHUN are not gays. lastly, both JONATHAN NGEOW SI MING and LIM BING SHUN like and enjoy SARAH ONG MEI SHAN's personality and company AS A FREN!!

~END OF NOTICE~

phew, finally got it done and settled.. wanted to make it flash and blink like mad but i dunno html, so sad.. haha and IMPT notice for NG JING YING!! deadline for the blog layout is 30th of APRIL!! hahaha dun forget worr.. wah super pek chek with sarah sia!! - breathe - 1 2 3 - breathe - 1 2 3 - breathe -

oh dear now the first 3mths shytt is back, i think i'm gonna give it a try.. if possible go for first 3mths see if i can adapt, if not go poly =) hahaha no choice, i'm a poly type of person.. aimin for nyjc or tjc.. however, no much confidence haha.. gettin geared up le, goin to jus give wadever i can give haha =) BINGSHUN JIAYOU!! =P sorry xiaojun,celina and melise.. wanted to dedicate this entry to 3 of u de haha but no time and no space..however, dun fret!! promise i'll make an entry for 3 of u!! =)

oh ya ppl who know and do not know maria my fren, she is sellin or givin away archie comics and other bks!! pls patronise her by goin to her blog and haf a look at the bks for sale =) www.-zonked-.blogspot.com thank u!! =)

okie hmwk time, cyaz =D

2005-03-29T23:10:00.000+08:00

shyt sia.. i updated the second half le!! stupid blogger tell me blog not found!! super waste my time lehh..!! =( tired le.. nvm tmr den i re-write la.. so pek chek!! =(

cont'd SYA camp~

2005-03-29T22:08:00.000+08:00

hahahah let's continue!! SYA camp~ *pls read the entry before first k ppl?haha..

hahah recall recall~
hmm our SYA nite on the third nite was a blast!! haha all thankz to edwin, it was his idea.. preparations was tough, everybody was so excited in my grp and it became super messy.. however we did well in the end haha.. sadly durin the preparations i wasnt involved much.. sorry grp 3~ wel il was super tired and eventually fell sick haha.. lucky all thankz to nicole's care, dat i managed to recover super quick.. also i really drank lotsa water aft she told me i had a damn bloody fever!! durin the camp, the preparations for the SYA nite was the only time i was not involved.. haha aft dinner went up to take a short nap, who knows when i woke up i saw ZATAN!! woah, scary haha.. rushed out straight away =P okiee my grp presented sth like a rhya idol performance kinda thing.. super lame and funny lor, especially the wayang and indian dance (our hit)! haha.. aft dat was a rockin SYA dance which everybody danced like mad and stylin of our trainers hair, so cool so fun!! haha.. funny arh, sick still can dance =P omg the images are floodin my mind now, how i longed for those wonderful times..

last nite le, jon went to my rm and slp.. i rmb aft the SYA nite, on the way back to our rms, meichin stop at the staircase and tell me to meet at dunno wad time to tell ghost stories.. aft dat i cant rmb much except tryin to find sarah and den ngeow.. oh and last nite le, the guys wanted to ambush the gals with a pillow fight but the plan was foiled by lillian lim the dunno wad la, sth like security woman makin sure guys dun go gals rm and gals dun go guys rm and hanky panky, act like monkey.. haha oh i rmb a funny part dat nite.. was tryin to escape frm lilian lim with kiap how but was caught cuz some cute ppl namely XIAOJUN called kiap how when we were so perfectly hidden and she made the phone ring!! hahaha super funny lor, kiap how and me was like wth how come suay until liddat and we laughed all the way back to our rms.. super tired dat nite, rmb callin sarah before i slept and also hearin some lame ghost stories frm junyu and izhar before piggin off like a real PIG!! haha..

the last day at nacli was rather dum in the mornin.. stupid fire alarm ring for nothin and scared the hell out of ngeow, junyu, izhar and me.. when we rushed to kota raja square we saw nobody and we were like @#$%.. hahaha super funny all the crapp we said as we went back into our rms.. aft dat we had to clear up the hall we used the nite before, however we ended up dancin like crazyy dere haha.. we jus cant resist and forget the wonderful fun nite we had the day before la, and this is where our dear jingying came in!! ahhaha she was like dancin in her own world lor.. so steady sia!! hahaha when i shouted for everybody to see u sld see how pai seh she became =P she was dancin so sexily ok! wasted we didnt pushed her into the middle..

next i cant rmb le, hahaha keep forgettin.. oh we had our pillow fight!! haha cant rmb when but the last day was it! so fun, however as usual dat 'fitch' had to spoil it all.. before dat i think we had some activities!! and also lunch, which i rmb very clearly i was forced by jingying and ngeow to sit beside sarah.. idiots~ if only they weren't so fierce.. =P we broke some record, cant rmb which one but we broke it!! haha i rmb the record though it was 13:38 min~ buy 4-D!! hahaha.. my grp didnt do well as usual but as usual we had the most fun!! hahah durin the balancin thingy game me and xiaojun was like controllin the whole thing!! dumdum xiaojun so scared of fallin down de, move abit only she tighten her grip on my hand, when we stop she loosen the grip hahah so cute.. oh intro!! XIAOJUN is the craziest and funniest gal in the whole SYA camp!! hahaha.. she can make herself and ppl ard her laugh non-stop de.. silly gal, very interestin too haha =P

next we did some rope jumpin?hahah i dunno abt my grp la, but i was jumpin to the music played instead.. but i know my grp did haf lotsa fun la, we were like the only grp which was smilin all day! funny lehh mouth not tired ahahaha.. oh my grp started with the teletubbies crap, AGAIN AGAIN!! hahah the action was soo cute too can?? my grp is indeed the craziest slacker grp, well cant blame cuz ----> BINGY'S ARD!! ahaha.. next we played moon ball and danced the indian dance, it was a perfect endin =) most imptly, we did haf lots and lots of FUN!! oh secret ppl, sarah looks super pretty when she is angry,super cute when she is aslp, super blurr when she is playin moonball !! hahaha.. indian dance make me rmb ngeow and me went to a tree and danced around the tree!! hahah so ke ai both of us~

last part of camp was super touchin and memorable.. i rmb sarah givin me a super dumdum face, jacq cryin as she talked to us, the things we wrote for her, the huggs dat we gave, the tears dat dropped, the funny parts when givin out our certs and the revenge izhar and i did for the SYAs with a gecko!! =P hahaha.. oh ppl anothe sercret!! melise is another crazy gal who can laugh and cry w/o warnin hahaha..oh melise oh melise oh melise hahah i mentioned u le worr!! oooh and mei chin is another sotong!! we had to write some survey abt the camp and she was so blurr dat she ticked everythin to be bad when she actually meant very gd, haha dumdum.. shucks i think i very mean, hahaa i keep talkin abt ppl!! shyt sure kena killed when they read it but nvm, only sermin reads my blog now hahah so nvm =)

eh okie end of the camp was gd, end of the day wasnt.. shouted at qi at the coffee shop and really aft thinkin back i realised i was wrong.. all thanks to sarah also la, dumdum gal not only scolded me also keep tellin me abt gal power.. i know i know, gals rawkz k?? haha.. luckily everythin is ok now, and i'm a better mAN!! hahaha.. crapp but truee =) okie end of SYA camp le i think, unless i rmb anythin else..

heyy ppl next entry got crazy gal xiaojun and lame gal celina antics!! hahaha super dumdum ppl but i like them cuz same league, all crazy ppl~

de-closin of blog

2005-03-28T22:13:00.001+08:00

boo~ haha yayys!! my blog will not be deleted, cuz sermin says so.. anyway gonna miss my blog like mad if i really haf to delete it..okie since not closin the blog le, muz update abt the SYA camp le haiz..

SYA camp//

1st day:
had to meet everybody at 7am, however ended up late(as usual) reached abt 7.20-30 plus.. lucky still quite early, so went to haf breakfast with some of them.. cant rmb who la =P we made wrong orders and had to eat super fast, cuz zatan and the buses reached le.. zatan sorted us into 2 grps and we are off!! initially i thot whyy i so suay, first person i saw sarah, when eatin opp sarah, same bus somemore.. lucky in the end different grp, phew.. hahaha =P not dat i dun like sarah la in fact i enjoy her company lor, jus feel very awkward and uneasy with all those bloody RUMOURS!! anyway supposed to ignore and avoid her durin camp de, but i forget =P how to when i'm so used to her presence and we haf to see each other every day durin camp??

oh haha ppl, u sld all know sarah and kiat hua looks super ke ai when they slp.. sarah looks so sweet like an angel in her slp, kiat hua however is so active in her slp ahhaha..both look so amusin lor!! ok abit out of pt haha.. back to 1st day.. aft all the grpin, ice-breakin and gettin into our rms, we went for lunch and activities.. cant rmb which come first.. it was so fun k, my grp altho did not do very well durin the whole camp but i'm proud to say we are the most united and the most hilarious one.. full of crapp and nonsense!! haha and of cuz with me ard, super slack!! =P oh suay thing, i haf ZATAN in my room!! lucky he did not stay at all haha.. so jon can stay with us and slp tgt haha, so fun.. cant rmb wad else we did la, hmm so long ago le.. nvm hahah i jus say wad i can rmb, dunnit 1st day, 2nd day, 3rd day and all le hahaha..

oh ppl also, first day of camp and nicole and i found a super irritatin person dat alr got on our nerves!! her name is jodie.. dumdum name with a dumdum face and a dumdum personality.. nvm i punished her with a gecko alr, so i shall say no more abt her.. =) okie think second day i went for paintball, altho cannot play la but it was still fun cheerin them on and watchin them play.. so wasted, my only regrets for this camp is not bein able to play paintball and dragonboatin and sth else cannot say =) dragonboatin was more fun, was on the powerboat and jacq was drivin it u know!! so cool, she rOX man!! hahaha, had a nice time speedin ard for a short while, feelin the breeze on my face.. really got tanned jus 2hrs out dere, super shiok!!

the next activity which happened was the road march and the camp site thingy.. omg the road march was so borin.. first ever road march which i suffered ultimate boredom haha.. oh i rmb sth else, edwin henry weijiang kenneth roX my ears on the bus hahaha.. they were singin all the crapp all the way and it was so hilarious and fun!! oh the camp site thingy was the first time i was angry durin camp.. once again --> bloody 'ms fuck here and dere (jodie) fault, nvm lucky for henry who keep her away frm me haha..had a crazy time pitchin those tents, hurt my hand too so ouchz! however got a gd medic by the name of mei chin to help me out, so haha i'm ok =) and thanks to xiaojun and some other crazy ppl who cant aim for nuts, keep malletin my hand -__-''
hahaha was feelin super sianz aft pitchin the tents, den i saw our cute little sarah busy tyin knots.. so i decided to tease her haha, naughty yes i agree =P to add in the fun, jerome joined in!! haha sorry sarah.. sorry again for pushin and pullin u thruout the camp too, but jus keep in mind altho i pushed and i pulled, i didnt throw u away and i still want u!! haahha so dun worry frenz forever!! =PP

later dat nite, sentry duty was kinda fun.. practically went to every tent to check on the ppl to check whether they were ok, cuz it was super hot in the tents.. anyway it became colder as the nite goes.. in the end qian hui,nicole,cheryl and me ended up slpin tgt on the canvas sheet in the middle of the walkway..so cool rite?haha oh i wore a sarong dat nite too!! it was so amusin lor, spend a long time learnin how to wear it.. in the end used it as blanket cuz it was cold!! phew got alot more things to add but cant rmb all.. continue tmr la hahaha..

TO BE CONT'D =D
* got stories of jingying's super dance moves and blah blah blah haha..

de-closin of blog

2005-03-28T22:13:00.000+08:00

closin of my blog

2005-03-27T22:02:00.000+08:00

boo hahah hihi ppl!! very long nv blog le..

wanted to blog abt the SYA camp and other stuff de haha but no!! gonna announce the closin of my blog on the first of april at 7am tgt with SER MIN!! haha she closin her blog too and for a rather dumdum reason.. wad are frens for?? they are for goin thru openins and closins, so i decided to close my blog tgt with her :D wad a fren! -pat myself on my own back-

cyaz ppl!! oh thank u QIQI, for givin me this wonderful blog in the first place :)

woah~ learnin exposure day!! =)

2005-03-16T02:01:00.000+08:00

due to requests made by some nice ppl like for eg jingying, melise, sermin (haha my blog like no guys wanna come lehh, so pathetic) i decided to update again =)

now is 2plus in the mornin.. so its wed, i'll start on mon den =)

mon, basically quite monotonous as usual.. cant rmb much except dat sermin was super nice, became my aunt agony for the nite!! thank u sermin =) she gave me so much advice and help dat was so useful and i desparately need =) however, she duwan help me with my last request =( dumdum sermin haha, but nvm la not dat impt anyway.. oh jus rmb the afternoon part when i was at cdc, helped zatan with the RHYA senior camp and had a fun time with qian hui and jon.. poor qiqi, she seemed bored lor =( next time muz think of sth which wun bore her haha, cuz i think i neglected her alot worr.. happy to see qian hui wad, so long nv see her le.. like qiqi say MIA(missin in action) for a long long time =)

tues, which actually is supposed to be today's entry la.. the day started off kinda bad ba, woke up and haf to go out with my parents which i really dread.. cuz seriously i cant communicate with them la, i find them dense.. yea i agree its bad of me to think this way but well.. went to esplanade and it was my first time dere, haha so suaku.. anyway was supposed to go dere to see some japanese bed or sth, but the shop was closed.. as usual, ideas frm my mum nv work out =P after which we went to haf lunch cuz i really woke up late, due to super tiredness frm the previous nite and makin a dumb phone call in the mornin which i think was so redundant(correct spellin?) lor.. next time i shant bother anythin to do with her haha, cuz i find doin things like dat for her is so extra.. muz as well do for myself and others betta =P okie durin the car ride to the lunchin place, we had a quarrel.. on the way back home, worse.. a heated argument hahaha =P reach home tried to get ppl to keep me company at cdc but none was available, so sadd.. when u are not popular its liddat =( nvm nonetheless went to cdc cuz i had to help zatan out, in the end went dere and helped julius clear the mess.. kNs super sloppy worker with a very bad attitude lor.. sometimes jus so fed up with him =( clearin the mess abt halfway thru qian hui and melise (who are the only 2ppl which i cld get) came =) finally, company for me hahaha.. anyway they helped me alot, thankz melise, qian hui xie xie!! =D however, sorry melise haha i know i made u waste super alot of time.. owe u a treat la k? ke lian de melise, waited for zatan and i to discuss and settle the doc until she was so bored i think.. den instead of accompany qian hui and i to dinner, she had to rush home.. so sorry melise =( haha but i know u wun mind de la.. today was a great day at cdc too!! learnt a lot of stuff frm zatan, altho its like pi mao only la.. at least i've grown a tat smarter and i'm contented at dat =P
oh a nice treat frm zatan at Long John Silver too!! thankz zatan =) hahaha oh yea ppl, sarah's new name accordin to zatan is *sarah ong jing ying* hahah so ke ai, 2 person merge into one =P

phew dats all i guess.. hmm think next time i sldnt take so long to update an entry, cuz i seriously know abt the crappin business and thus typed a lot.. who wanna read a whole large chunk of words rite??unless dat person is interested in me la, which i think and know is not possible =D heyy ppl go get this 4 super roX songs!!

1. chi xin jue dui by li sheng jie
2. tong hua by guang liang
3. shou fang kai by li sheng jie
4. yuan zou gao fei by li sheng jie

all chi songs and they are my faV, really worth the time listenin~ =D
okie i sld go jump into bed, i'm beat and i gotta go cdc tmr mornin at 10!! @#%% (haha for the sake of sarah and melise i shant use vulgarities, see i so nice =P)

updatin..

2005-03-13T02:28:00.000+08:00

updatin..

so sianz, fuckk up lor recently.. guess i'm expectin too much frm myself and others ba =( oh btw i betta apologise to sarah ong mei shan first.. special wor, all of a sudden i become "Mr whyy u always irritate and offend me guy" to her le haha.. anyway quite cool arh the name, but very long.. so sorry, hmm seems like i've been usin the word sorry a no. of times le hor.. however and seriously, i'm very sorry.. watever the case jus smile ba =) =) =) think i betta apologise to the rest of the ppl too, haha duwan to seem bias.. qi arh, sorry wor i know i abit sickenin nowadays haha.. but nonetheless i still care la, jus dun like it when you always get depressed so easily, i want to see everybody ard me smile frm the heart.. smile k? and for u, more =) who else muz i apologise arh? okie forget it, i offend alot of ppl i cant rmb them all.. so lets be general, ppl i know i've been super irritatin and sickenin and most of the times super unbearable(unpredictable too).. really very sorry abt it.. as usual like bingshun will always be, i'll make amends whenever i can.. meanwhile jus smile ppl, i feel betta when i see ppl smile =)

i wonder whyy i'm updatin sia.. do i update so i can vent my frustrations?share my joys and sorrows?i seriously dunno.. anyway who bothers to read?? nobody read i update for wad man.. hahah oh ya i updated cuz melise and sermin ask me too.. see quite guai ritez?? think this will be my last update ba, think only not confirmed.. hahaha been kinda upredictable recently and i dunno whyy.. oh man, life aint smooth for me this yr!! =( at times like this, i really feel like havin someone ard who will shower tender lovin care on me hahaha.. however too bad for bingy, he is not meant to haf a gf.. dun haf the qualities to be a gd bf, haha if there is any la.. crapp -__-'' haha.. anyway i like myself to be carefree, not sure i can adapt to the commitment i haf to put in.. so jus as well i guess =) sld go get myself a big big cute bear dat i can hugg, haha liddat at least when i haf the similar urge i can fall back on the big big cute bear.. in case u didnt know, i luv huggs!! hahaha i always welcome huggs and kisses, but huggs more =)

okie i think this entry is long enuff.. thankz to those who comes along and read or tagg, at least i know i didnt waste my time updatin.. hahaha feel like a dumdum =P haiz, smile ppl.. smile more and deep down frm ur heart worr.. even if u dun feel like smilin, jus smile.. u might cheer someone up or even brighten their day de!! for eg, when it comes to me i really appreciate a smile =) =)=)=)=) =)=)=)

smile away ppl~

screams out loud

2005-03-07T23:49:00.001+08:00

today i'm guai.. i made a big change in sch and so many teachers were so happy with me and i feel so gd.. startin tuition next wk, stress lvl increasin as every second pass.. went cdc aft sch today, wanted to kinda de-stress.. however, got more stressed up.. fun though it may seem, missed cdc.. havent been dere in ages, talked to busy zatan and hyper yyfyinn, kope lotsa chocs frm her too.. went ah beng hse to collect some games and talked abt someone who is a big stress factor now haha.. shhh!! she cannot know =) after which, went to the lan game shop at grandlink and waste money cuz practically all the com is problematic -___-'' ( anyway dunno how to spell the last word) decided to go weijiang hse and hang out abit to relax.. so followed alvin to his hse and got whiskey and played abit with roman the horny cowardly cute doggie =) luv him haha.. who knows go weijiang's hse more stress, nat saw me and boo!! out came her dumdum name -__-'' pek chek.. hahaha in the end, had prata over dere and drank a few cups of whiskey.. talked abit and den went home.. phew basically dats my day, haunted by her memory fresh in my mind =( anyway now abit shagged, muz be the whiskey.. drank quite some amt, altho i know i wun get drunk haha =P haf a strong tolerance for liquor ever since young =) kinda proud of it haha.. haiz so lonely and troubled, i need a listenin ear and a closed mouth!! hahah but i guess only i'm capable of dat =P oh before i forget, i luv my twin =) shes been super nice and always dere for me, wad to do, my twin wad haha -huggs- miss ya~

cyaz~

screams out loud

2005-03-07T23:49:00.000+08:00

i'm sick again

2005-03-05T21:00:00.000+08:00

i'M siCk again!! so tmd, suddenly fall sick.. =( prob is i dunno wad is the prob so i cant cure myself =( hahaha jialat.. no worries, jus stay happy will do haha.. cuz i'll be very lucky when i'm happy!! =) =) =)

haha recently i found myself another job!! so now i got 2 jobs!! ahhaha =) my first job is to wake sarah upp every mornin, my second job is to send smileys to ppl!! cuz recently alot of ppl sadd sadd de, den very troubled and stressed too.. so i decided to be mR niCe gUy for awhile and send smileys to ppl to cheer them upp!! =) a smile a day keeps sadness away!! hahaha =D

oooh i'M sick.. whyy nobody come take care of me and sayang me de?? =(
haha somebody come take care of me quick!!! =))

saved..

2005-03-03T21:00:00.000+08:00

hahaha today quite lucky =) saved by my tuiton teacher Ray See!! phew.. i thot i was game over =P anyway back to class and it was so sianz.. haha borin day, with borin subs!! i hate thurs =( 4 periods of chem is not exactly fun in anyway haha.. 2 periods of stupid PE which i cant take part this whole yr, den sit dere and shake leg see ppl suffer hahaha =P so proud of myself today, nv slp much in sch!! haha abit cannot slp le la, kena complain like siao still slp = death..

my class got so many rich and selfish ppl!! haha also got master thieves =P sickenin sia, pek chek share cab with some ppl muz pay triple the price for the journey -____-'' oh ya forgot today i super guai also, nv use vulgarities in EXCESS hahah.. muz add excess =P see i'm changin into a better man, need to upgrade la.. i'm good man now, so muz upgrade to better man hahaha..

today also quite happy!! cuz my probs are gettin solved one by one =D wah happy go lucky, super carefree!! my lifestyle back indeed =) i'm re-borned!! hahaha.. hmm lets see, where did i copy dat frm??haha.. anyway i'm done for now, i wanna go get songs frm ppl le, my com so empty.. hahaha songs here i come!! =P

current affairs

2005-03-02T00:10:00.000+08:00

boo~ under orders to update my blog..

hmm pretty stressed up, with lotsa things.. guess i'm not mature enuff and still dunno how to prioritize my stuff.. seein ppl like jingying sarah, jonathan and my other frens, feel so inferior.. mainly cuz i lack discipline.. so it really doesnt matter whether u are born with a high or low IQ, in the end u will still flunk (like me) if u are lazy.. =( worse case for me, i dunno wad to do, where to start and wad am i doin.. life aint simple at all =(

gonna engage my tuition teacher again, to attempt to catch up on my studies..
lucky for me i haf jian yuan to constantly whack me to prevent me frm fallin aslp in class..
i muz get back the interest i lost in sch work and put aside my social life..
lastly, stop thinkin and dreamin (day-dreamin included) abt ppl i sldnt be thinkin ot dreamin of..

dats all for now ba, goin thru a tough time.. but no worries i'm tough enuff, so i can get goin =)

messed up life~

2005-02-23T20:47:00.000+08:00

nothin to update, so i shall do a journal for today..

mornin wake up call sarah, sarah ignore me ok nvm.. go bathe and get changed.. chat abit on msn, eat watever i can find and leave my hse.. met yoke tin at the bus-stop, he pon-ing sch cuz he very siann.. so i pei him get a cab den i walk into the sch gate.. at the sch gate i sigh and muttered 863.. reach classroom, put down my bag and act cool go drink water haha.. come back and borrow jude's new hp, msg sarah.. jus nice msg sent, sch bell ringgs.. tidy myself up and go out of classroom for mornin assembly.. i see kwok i muttered 863 again.. assembly starts and ends, i was so irritated and frustrated.. all becuz of kwok and kwok and kwok.. whole day talk abt birds and dunno wad crapp.. act cool again go drink water haha.. come back to class and pei ee loong sneak to other classes to borrow chi dict.. on the way met VP - maria koh, steady sia.. touch my back here and dere somemore can tell me " nvm la, now cannot do any sports at least can swim mar. if u lucky go to the correct places, still can see pretty gals wearin sexy things." winks at me, touch my back and tell me say bye.. -___-'' VP encourage students to go see gals in bikinis sia, steady!! go back class aft successfully borrowin chi dict, give the china bastard pan xu an AP look and die die refuse to greet him.. sit down and wait for him to sing song and start the
ying yong wen test.. ( 863 this kinda thing also need test.. -__-'') woohoo feel dat i do so well, all thankz to sarah.. if she nv help me do my chi compo, i wun know wad to write.. no choice feel so bad she stayed up so late to help me and did not haf sufficient slp, dat i make myself rmb everythin she said dat nite.. ppl i really can recite the compo to u k? well its an emotional thing, who ask her so self-sacrificin (make me so guilty,863) next period, amaths test.. cool sia i dunno a single shyt abt differentiation and i nv study.. well jingying come first u know =P hahah.. watever, anyway study also fail de.. model loh - elenda loh, another steady one.. 5mins aft the test started, she see me put down my pen and sigh, she get up frm her seat and walk over to me.. not bad wor, ex-model jiu shi ex-model, walk towards me model style sia.. u know the way cats walk la, backside shake shake here shake shake dere one.. pull me to 1 side and give me personal analysis.. not bad la at least she got me thinkin abt myself again, which i seriously is in need of.. anyway it was her story abt the donkey dat got me thinkin la.. jus realised, her story all got animals one and hor like aesop fables liddat.. the moral of the story is, blah blah blah.. den as usual la, all the rest of the lessons nothin interestin le.. chem lesson nothin happen la, except dat i got a freakin shock.. i fell aslp u see, her lesson too borin.. i had a beautiful dream.. when i wake up it became a nitemare.. reality u know?? kaoz, i dreamt of her!! is like not possible de lor, dreamin of her means trouble..of all ppl whyy her?? jialat sia, continue this way and i can die in reality and live a super great life in my dreams.. lucky i know dreams are the opposite of reality so she and me = not possible, phew =) finally last sub of the day!! history!! oh i became hyper durin history i dunno whyy.. den jian yuan pek chek hahaha, cant stand me den keep whackin me ouch!! so pain haha.. aft lesson suay, kena 1 on 1 talk again by tan-chin.. steady sia, tell me say she very busy still want to talk to me.. say similar things as model loh la, haha siann kena praised and scolded twice for the same thing in the same day.. came home, waited for sarah to contact me.. was slackin ard the hse, den suddenly i started day-dreamin.. den she invaded my thots again!! 836 i panicked and i dunno wad i do la, i injured my foot.. no wounds no nothin la but it jus hurts when i walk.. all her fault!! =( decided to jus nap for awhile, jus nice exactly 15mins sarah called to wake me up, wow!! aft dat i developed fever.. -____-'' but no worries, i'm ok now le.. haha basically cuz i slept for a long long time, but i nv go tampines mall and try to get a replacement for jingying today =( nvm i'll do it tmr or sth, end late but sld be free enuff la.. er end of story le, nothin to write again..
boo!! =( cryy cryy cryy.. i know wads the prob le!! i'm out of place, i sld leave and come back again when i'm needed again.. i haf no role here le.. cyaz, till u haf need for me dere again =) byebye!!

i'm lost..

2005-02-20T09:47:00.000+08:00

ta~da!! i'm back here =) seems like a long time..

so many things happenin ard me recently and i cant cope!! haha so i'm lost again =) dropped into a bottomless pit hole le, cool.. happens everytime, esp when it sldnt.. -__-'' well maybe its a time i took a break!! haha a break frm everythin will be gd =)

see la, say i duwan grow up le.. growin up is bad!! hahaha u get so many things to be mindful of until u go craZy!! jus like me =) therefore i'm gonna be Peter Pan!! i'm not goin to grow up and shall live in NeverNeverLand!! hahaha wad a wonderful idea =) hmm the prob now is i still dunno how to fly.. how to get dere?? aeroplane?? they dun haf airport in NeverNeverLand!! hahah shuckz..

oooh i luv my blog!! haha cuz its the only thing i can talk to other den the mirror =P wonderful ritez? only restriction is some things cannot say out de =( tmd~ hahaha =P i'm a bad boy!! baddie baddie bad boy!! bad boy bad boy baddie baddie bad boy!! =PPPPP

okie nothin to say le, all the rest of the stuff restricted de hahaha.. tmd muz go back to mirror again.. mirror so sianz lor, its either rectangular or square if not oval or circle... haha tataz~~

day aft valentine

2005-02-16T00:11:00.000+08:00

hahah its a day aft valentine.. nice valentine i had, expected it to be a lonely borin one at first but well it ended up not dat lonely and not dat borin =) went out with sarah jingying jonathan and beng.. wow nice company worr =) got roses for the gals( includin pJ who left us early) but had a hard time givin them away =( in the end sarah felt insulted.. well wad to do??my fault.. =(
on the way home kena scoldin frm jingying lehh!! she so fierce de, scared le la.. lesson learnt : nv make sarah angry if not jingying will kill u if sarah dun =P haha..

today met sarah jingying and beng again, wow... anyway meetin sarah jingying and jonathan tmr, wow again... hahahah been meetin them alot hor?? cool.. no choice, they are fun to haf ard esp when i'm afraid of bein lonely =) tmr studyin worr.. study!! hahaha i promised sarah to study tmr.. i actually promised!! wow aint i sucha anGeL?? lets see if my promise breaks tmr hahaha.. oh i promised felix and weiyuan to not slp, nap, meditate and close my eyes for 3secs in class too.. hahaha probation period for 3days only =) hahah and ppl did u realise??? i nv use a single vulgarity!! haha so guai.. but boo!! i wanna be a BAD boy!! =P so i will use eventually someday somehow somewhere hahahaha.. =P tata~

reflection!!

2005-02-12T21:36:00.000+08:00

cool new yr no com no ang bao no money =( omg haha jingying's bdae comin soon too.. can dun give present?? =P valentine day nearer.. haha but i think this yr valentine dunnit spend money.. no date spend money on myself only, so sianz!! haha i want to date ppl out de, but it seems dat everybody is dated ( who ask me haf so many frens who haf stead de ) den some ppl is cannot date de =( see, so this yr valentine celebrate myself.. buy rose, teddy bear and choc for myself hahahah.. so ke lian =( tmr muz go sim lim le, cant stand usin my sis laptop.. so difficult to use, not user friendly!! hehe later muz go pack my room also, so messy like pig-sty.. piggy piggy me!! hahaa =) haiz, now so sianz.. boo!! go slp??haha.. wake up later den pack my room la =P

happy chinese new yr!!

2005-02-08T22:18:00.000+08:00

haha chinese new yr is here again!! GONG XI FA CAI!! wishin everybody gd luck and fortune =)
this yr i cant collect ang bao, cuz my grandma passed away last yr.. boo!! so sad.. my parents are so smart, they went overseas holiday while my sis and i stay at home.. so boreD!!! =( to make the situation worse, i cannot play maple or any games cuz my com is not revived yet.. omg, stayin at home nothin to do =( oh oh wait i'm still sick too, altho feelin betta alr =P to recover totally i need my special tortle!! soup !! haha =P

so happy, my mum finally got me a new hp!! but i still cant get used to it, rather confused with all the funny funny stuff.. stupid nokia, make hp make until so complicated.. hahah still thinkin of wad to do for the next 2 days, any ideas ppl??

sick and tired

2005-02-06T14:02:00.000+08:00

short entry..

i'm sick and i want someone to take care of me!! =( i'm tired and i want my bed!! haha and lastly i still wun give up on havin fun with thanin for the time he is here in s'pore =)

com down

2005-02-03T23:34:00.001+08:00

wah sianz.. my com is 'certified' and i'm siCk!! dun feel well at all wor, somebody come take care of me!! =( hehe jus nice also, tmr can pon sch =P tmr will be a great day i think, thanin will be back and dats te main reason whyy i ponnin sch.. altho he comin at 5pm la.. tmr got x-country too and i duwan go dere waste time haha.. x-country cannot run, ask me go dere under the swelterin heat takin photos of ppl runnin, doesnt seem very fun to me lor.. anyway i'M siCk!! haha ok, rather i make myself sick =P but i still wanna haf someone to take care of me!! no fair whyy i sick nobody care abt me de =( tmr i gonna get my new com er hardware too haha, goin with beng i guess.. no choice la, my present com jus died on me this morn lor.. all becuz i wanna go tagg sermin's blogg!! her blogg is cursed in the mornin ahaha =P boo!! no com = no maple no music no msn no fun =( haaha lucky i still haf my sis's laptop to fall back on.. but only when she not usin den i can use so 863 lor!! dat selfish piece of lard.. =P sianz la her keys not nice to typed de, so i shall end here and find somewhere else to whine and make myself sicker.. shun bian find someone to take care of me!! =P

com down

2005-02-03T23:34:00.000+08:00

youth concert!!

2005-01-30T08:57:00.000+08:00

boo!! haha too long nv update my blog until i almost forgot the username and password to get in here.. i try to be more regular though =)

ytd was our SECDC youth concert!! though we met alot of idiots and AP-ed ppl it was still rather borin, actually i meant fun =P a great success!! hahaha but i dun like the way it was run though, but nvm its over..

as I/C of manpower, i'll like to thank some ppl for their help..

NGCHECHI - my secretary and the person who did the most work =P w/o her this youth concert will fall cuz got no volunteers to help out.. so the biggest thank u muz go to her!! THANK YOU!! =D 3 cheers for chechi!! hip hip hooray!! hip hip hooray!! hip hip hooray!! =D

KENNETHLEONG - haha my chairman for this event, altho is such an ass keepin sayin things he sldnt he helped me alot.. gave me valuable advice, abt wad i dunno hahaha =P thank u for keepin me company too worr =)

NGJINGYING - mewmew!! haha a very good help worr, basically everythin i duwan do she will do for me =) oh so touched hahaha.. dats whyy i was kinda angry when she was 'bullied' ytd, 863 dare to bully our little kitten, confirm nv die before..

SARAHONGMEISHAN(SOMS) - wah name so long.. next time shall jus use SOMS =P supposed to be kenneth secretary only, but end up bein everybody's secretary cuz she got nothin to do at all hahaha.. she will do everythin all of us duwan do cuz haha we are all lazier den her and all the last min thing all she settle one =D thank u worr!! (see i so polite, muz learn frm me!!)

ALL THE REST OF THE PPL - those dat help to spread the word ard, come attend the concert, help out at the concert and etc. thank u!! really appreciate it =)

now dat the concert is over, its time for me to concentrate more on my studies hahaha.. i'll need lotsa help though, cuz i dunno a single thing =( but first i shall return to bed cuz some wu gui ask me go slp and i muz be a gd boy -angel-!! hahaha cyaZ..

updatin!!

2005-01-23T08:59:00.000+08:00

hmm so long nv update my blog le..

but nvm i'm now updatin =P er haha duh? first of all thankz worr felix, for scoldin me on my tagboard.. kinda need it i guess =) and ya rite, those are stupid excuses.. the effort in my studies haf nothin to do with the probs i'm facin at home or watsoever.. wow haha, i actually listened to u!! also thank u to all who gave me so much encouragement!! really really appreciate it =)
~end of speech~ haha

oooh so glad, i managed to survive the 3days w/o vulgarities =) also i finally removed my sickenin brace!! haha now i feel so empty ard me.. nothin to hug me le hahaha.. but i'm so sadd, i injured my left arm.. =( dumdum camera equipment la, so heavy somemore wanna drop on my arm!! ytd my arm was in a vulnerable state too lor!! boo.. haha actually i wanna describe how sarah and jingying slp one, but hor not nice to expose them la and they will kill me if i do =P

anyways later goin to jingyins's hse to call up ppl to help out at the youth concert and email ppl!! haha actually go jingying's hse = i hope we can play pool?? hahahaa.. but to throughly enjoy myself later, i think i betta do my unfinshed hmwk first.. been puttin it away and ignorin it =P hehe i think 3hrs can complete le la, so i shall go maple first =D

cyaz ppl~ boo!! haha no vulgarities for this entry =)

uh-oh

2005-01-19T06:30:00.000+08:00

uh-oh... i made sarah angry, boo! dunno how i made her angry, she also duwan say but shes angry.. phew lucky shes not angry le.. she said she found a way to vent her anger, which if i'm not wrong is her blog =) altho i said dat she looks super cute when she is angry, i wld rather see her not cute and be happy(not dat shes not cute normally la, jus not as cute as when shes angry =P)
so as an apology and an attempt to cheer her up, the cute and luvable baby bingy baobei(mE) shall REFRAIN frm usin vulgarities for 3days!!(only) startin frm today all the way to fri 11.59pm.. jingying and beng shall be my witness for this, cuz they were the only ones who were ard when i made this dumdum decision =) okiez off to sch~

frustrated..

2005-01-17T23:34:00.000+08:00

so tmd sian lor.. this yr is like so shyt!! fuckin hell for nothin fracture my back last yr for wad i also dunno, sldnt haf jumped and slipped lor.. back dat day not feelin too gd le still go jump is like damn idiotic la.. cuz of dat give me such a rough start in this yr.. ccb~

family life worse den a dog's life, how to continue wad i wanna do?? father is sucha holy bastard.. fuckin shyt, changed my whole life.. make me want to leave home early and go home late, haf a hse like dun haf one` mother-fucker.. ask me study, how to study?? laggin behind like fuckin shyt, notes all gone.. cant even pass a single test ever since sch starts, want me to pass Os? wishful thinkin, dats call stupidity.. arghh!!! my whole life is in a fuckin mess and who the fuck is clearin it up for me?? fuckin piece of shyt..

tmd i really dunno how to continue, and i dun think i wanna continue cuz i realised i cant.. dreams are jus the desires in our small little mind, its not reality.. we cant control reality but we can control dreams, so i rather live in a dreamland den in this reality world.. i wanna break free and be in control, i hate restrains!! so fuck off if u think u can restrain me, try it and i make sure u'll live in livin hell..

sadd

2005-01-13T23:56:00.000+08:00

-sniff- sadd sia.. no money again hahaha, but nvm la.. long long one time pei ppl go out jus spend ba, can get back next time when i work =) today kinda wasted la, all thankz to a cute little sickly 'wu gui' but nvm la cant be helped.. duwan to worsen the wu gui's condition also cuz she so poor thing, allergic to painkillers haha.. den go out with qiqi and kenneth, super funny but also super hungry.. everythin so slow today!! ahaha..

alemak sianz sia, my lvl tests all fail, sch test all fail, sch hmwk all undone.. jialat, think this yr i'm a goner.. boo!! haha shyt shyt shyt ! ! ! haiz, den i so unhappy recently.. luckily i always believe in happy go lucky, dats whyy i smile whole day even when i'm sad!! i dun force it, i jus smile it =D hahaha sMiLe!! oh ya new record i didnt slp in class today!! so happy first time of the whole damn yr =P actually got alot more wanna say de, or rather whine but i too tired and lazy la haha.. dats whyy i'M sucha failure -shruggs- hehe =P

fed up sia.

2005-01-12T22:50:00.000+08:00

super fed up sia.. muz find so many rhyas, how to find?? the blue blue skyy dun drop down rhyas for me on the 29th of jan de lehh.. alemak jialat, ppl all duwan go den i'm so finished hahaha.. nvm la the most not enuff ppl only mar, haha run abt more lor..

realised i so long nv study le.. failed all my tests lehh haha.. think after the youth concert event i betta dun give myself any chance to slack, if not my Os is gonna see a 54pts haha.. i dunno anythin yet slp durin every lesson, confirm R.I.P soon enuff de lor. muz faster find study grp so got ppl to push me to study, give up on my sch teachers le all rubbish de.. all talk no action one, come to class crapp with me..

sianz forever quarrellin with my cca teacher haha.. darn it, always discredit me.. tmd so gd den need me for wad?? i quit u also muz do everythin urself kaobei so much.. think u so gd, den dun ask me for help!! bytch.. sch work, cca, secdc wah stress sia.. so many things to do, no wonder sick hahaa.. after youth concert, i think i go for low profile.. after cca maze, i think i involve less.. liddat i got more time for studyin!! haha i'm soo clever!! =) oh ya today sarah and jingying both so weird, scary sehh..

l a l a // m e w // k l o n g // b o o ! !

no name no name

2005-01-09T23:42:00.000+08:00

hahah ytd nv blog cuz i lazy.. went out with sarah jingying and jonathan!! we wanted to watched the fockers but it was nc16 so we cannot watch, and sarah keep whackin me whenever i pronouced the fockers the right way!! hahaha.. in the end we found ourselves a place to sit down eat, drink and talk.. burger king!! haha.. so fun, all the things we shared tgt seemed so hilarious!! we chatted all the way for abt 2hrs and made jingying late for her tuition =P but i feel dat she go dun go also no much difference de la haha.. didnt know we had so much to talk abt, guess its the company dat we enjoyed =)

well today we went out again haha.. today we went to haidie the music sch or watever haha dunno wad is it anyway.. haha on the way i met mr gOy!! den we chatted until he went off at dhoby ghaut.. funny seh, talk abt edmund and our class.. he is so super cute la the way he talk until i cant stop smilin at him cuz he is so amusin =P went dere cuz we had to see the auditions for the youth concert and company our RHYA dancers to their first dance lesson.. super cool lehh, if only i not in commitee and my back is alrite i sure join them in the dance haha.. today i keep makin sarah angry haha, i dunno how i do it but i jus did it =P super amusin when she gets angry, haha oops =P ohh and i managed to bite a no. of ppl today haha, so clever of me!! oh alvin is goin to army soon.. haha and he keeps sayin he will become gay in army super cute sehh..

come to think abt wad sarah said, its really true dat we ( bingshun,jingying, jonathan,kiathua,melise,sarah ) haf been hangin out alot recently.. haha wow didnt realised dat lehh.. it muz be the company of each other dat brings us tgt!! but as usual la, stuff like this wun last long de, so i betta cherish every single one of them haha =D

tmr got geog and SS test but i nv study die le la haha.. haiz but i betta buck up and find a pushin force to make me study!! haha but i duwan qiqi, she is damn gd at stressin me cuz she very fierce i scared.. muz find someone who can slack with me abit de haha.. muz make qiqi my mother also haha, cuz she when comes to studies very strict with me i like it!! haha.. =) go ask her be my mAmA!! but kenneth how?? i duwan kenneth to be my pApA hahah, i duwan incest =P aft the youth concert i go find all sec 4 RHYA see who wanna form stufy grp with the cute and luvable me!! =D

okie basically nothin to say alr, except bOO!! hahaha =D

boo!!

2005-01-08T01:41:00.000+08:00

dere goes the first wk of sch.. dunno wad to say, fun?no..tirin?no..stressed?no.. dunno how i feel abt sch anyway.. well at least i know sth, i'm gonna stay and study!! haha.. thot abt it damn super long, realised i'm not the type who is capable of losin everythin.. i dun hate to lose, but i hate to lose w/o givin it my best shot =P all thanks to the ppl i see recently, they make me want to join them haha..

!! dunno wad to blog, haha got nothin interestin.. everyday is the same old rubbish.. muz learn frm jingying, mew~ oh sth interesin!! i know how to spell and write someone's name le.. it is written like this, Kiat~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Hua haha dat sickenin gal..

aiya i waitin for my new blog layout!! sarah and jingying so slow de.. sarah i can understand la, she wU gUi wad of cuz slow abit but den jingying lehh!! oooh, i know le she cat, cats are lazy!! no wonder =P i got nothin to blog le.. =( oh sarah, i very long nv use vulgarities le worr.. see i so guai, dun u think u sld reward me?? =D i'll be waitin worr..

arghh i missed a post =(

2005-01-06T21:46:00.000+08:00

oh dear i forgot to blog ytd.. haha nvm my excuse is i was too tired =)

today is the 4th day of sch i believe, not bad worr actually considerin all the teachers wun like punish me too severely if i do anythin wrong.. feel the pressure alr, so soon lehh at the start of the yr.. go chem lab do expt i also scared sehh!! first time in my life in maris stella i'm receivin so much hmwk lor, alemak scary worr.. haha oh ya presently in charge of manpower and welfare with junyu for the youth concert, vexin worr.. no exp wadsoever la, damn scared do sth wrong and mess up, but watever.. gonna jus do wad i'm told and jus sit back and relax dun think so much =D but ppl i need ur help!! hahah i need to find 100 RHYAs to help out at the event and i need these 100 RHYAs to find viewers to attend the youth concert.. ppl ppl help help worr thankz =D

went to cdc jus now to watch incredibles haha, so lame.. disappointed with my sch ppl lehh, alemak worst den me.. they live like pigs!! use finish meetin room duwan off light, litter dun throw.. drink finish leave the cups lyin all over and mess up the place dun pack!! omg compared to them i'm an super angel seh!! muz talk to them abt it ahaha, cuz i lazy to clear for them la =P
nothin to say le, go play maple!! haha..

emotionally weak ppl~

2005-01-04T22:52:00.000+08:00

as the day passes by, i realised, how all of us had grown closer and more aware of each other.. each and every thing we say or do brings us closer to the heart.. haha wow!! i sound so mature =P but seriously, aft conversin with a few ppl today i realised how much each and every single one i know mean to me, with a few exceptions dat is for sure.. haha i also know dat we are a grp of act tough ppl who are emotionally weak inside!! finally, i'm not alone =)

its nice to be single somehow, altho bein in a relationship and haf someone to luv and to be luv is a nicer feelin.. haha but heyys, i do yearn to haf someone by my side close to me BUT i can do w/o it nonetheless =D anyway bein single fits my char, i luv bein carefree w/o restrains =) omg i'M A frEE mAn!!

second day in sch haha wow, so super borin seh.. went to sch late today, reached sch at 8.18?? oh yea dat mR. dunno wad the hEll is ur name, talk to me so curtly.. lucky i'm sick if not i sure give u a hell ofan attitude!! haha try to scare me with dennis koh.. sorry hor dennis koh my best fren =) gonna fail my amath lvl test as usual la but haha who cares, they cant make me drop anyway.. today wanna slp also cannot slp cuz of the freakin brace.. haiz, learn nothin except phy today wow and i cant rmb a thing haha.. oOooOh i cut my hair today too!! and now my hair looks like hamster's fur?? haha.. lets hope i will be betta tmr haha cuz i goin cdc for er meetin =)

first day of sch!!

2005-01-03T22:50:00.000+08:00

well today is the first day of sch.. 2005, not my kind of yr i guess.. really feelin vexed, dunno whether i wanna continue schlin or not.. today jus a short session, came to sch sit down talk abit den listen to PAN XU our china guy talk crapp.. haha suay he my form teacher this yr, abit sadd though but hes a nice guy la in anyway haha.. today wow in the limelight seh, all the teachers come ask me how i am, so touched!! hahah rubbish.. but serioisly they were quite nice la =)

tmd i sick seh.. hahaha shyt bag how?? but nvm la also gd, got excuse for not cuttin my hair today =P sometimes i think i really very smart lehh.. but smart at the wrong things and wrong way haha =P omg i feel so cold and lonely!! -huggs myself- hahaha =)

heyheyhey thanin thanin thanin haha, absence makes the heart fonder!! but heyys its too long k =P come back here u dumdum!! nahs talkin rubbish.. hope ya ok and all, luv ya!!~

missin u~~

2004-12-29T01:20:00.000+08:00

where is everybody?? i'm startin to miss ppl.. been to the airport to see my aunt off for her flight to india, the moment i stepped into the darn buildin, memories of thanin came floodin back..

Thanin, i miss u so much..i really wanna haf u back here again :( if only u didnt haf to go if only u were here i wun be feelin so bad..

as i went thru all the files i had in my com, darwin and isabel came into mind.. realised wad impt and valuable chapts their appearance in my life had been.. isabel, haha the stupid things i did dat harm our frenship and hurt us both.. all the crazy stuff and silly times we had tgt, if i'm not wrong, we had a very strong imprint in each other's life.. i had a part of u and u a part of me, wow cool :) i hate to admit this, i really miss u too.. u are unforgettable dats for sure, always a part of valuable memories to me.. given a wish, i wld wish u back as before :)
darwin.. leavin too, abt soon and i duwan him to go.. like thanin, he is a fren dat really means alot and someone i depend on alot.. sure we had our arguments and disagreements, but he is such a gd fren dat i wun wanna lose no matter wad happens.. alemak how come both of my closest partners are leavin?? cant blame. both are foreign students.. :( darwin i'm startin to miss u even before u go, i swear u are alot more impt den isabel haha.. da tu zhi!! =P

my hamster.. shes's dyin i think, i luv her so much.. i hate to see her die.. if there is a way to stop her frm dyin i'll do it.. baobei, she has a part of isabel too haha, suay but true.. baobei baobei baobei, my only regret is dat i cant be a gd owner to u.. dun die on me cuz i cant bear to know ur departure.. haha luv u!! watever u dunno how to surf the net damnit.. =P

feelin low... whyys?? i dunno maybe tired of =) in front of ppl la.. i wanna be =( haha crazy ppl haf crazy mood swings -slaps slaps- -huggs- hahaha =P miserable piece of shyt i haf become haha, treaure all the time i haf to be sad now, cuz tmr muz be happy again haha.. so tirin, wanna jus die sometimes but i coward la dun dare attempt dun dare think.. so i shall live on and smile!! hahah baby bingy baobei is a happy go lucky person, nothin can harm his charmin life!! =) hahaha yea bingkins go binggan goes bingkins rox binggan stone!! haha =P

SMILE!!

father??wads dat?

2004-12-28T02:37:00.000+08:00

whyy the fuck muz i be dependent on my family?? wad in world is this word family?? to me its a fuckin foreign word and i dun like it.. come to think of it bein an orphan aint dat bad if i haf a family like the one i haf now..

Out For Sale: a fuckin person u call daddy who totally knows nothin abt fatherin, responsibility, respect and admittin his own faults and mistakes.. a high-class traditional MCP who is damn fuckin rigid and useless.. forever thinkin he is so smart and FACE is top piority followed by money.. good catch go get it, limited edition too

wrong?? i admit i'm wrong with some of the things i do but does he?? oh no, a father is always right, the son is a stupid useless piece of junk dat is in this world jus to gain face for the father.. hse is a fuck up place, family is a fuck up entity, father is a fuck up person.. livin in a fuck up world havin to bear with idiots, with a big brain but jus cant use it in the correct manner.. now i know how the kind of environment a person live in can change a person for life.

sth i really wanna tell my 'daddy' : do you not think that it is time for you to learn how to grow up??imbecile..

adfgjkll

2004-12-19T01:57:00.000+08:00

lets see, havent blog for 1 day.. lets see wad i did.. --->

haha ok 17th of dec.. hmm woke up early in the mornin go sch for a long meetin, er cca meetin this one.. okie practically go dere lazed ard as usual, not very enthu abt it as usual too hahah calcy knows it well :p well this time it was rather fun cuz we get to sit down and chit-chat more and woman wasnt as strict as usual hahahah.. ate pizza hut and kfc, woman ordered one. we ate in the staff lounge, totally know how to live life to its best haha cuz we switch on the cd-player, the air-con, drank cold drinks and made her do the dishes :p super naughty, but wad to do?haha.. guess she was too tired out aft all the fun, so we ended early, so i went to find sarah!! had to collect my wallet hahah.. long story, so i shant say. jus now dat my wallet was with her and i hafta meet her and get it back, simple?simple haha.. reached home and chatted with qiqi for awhile, den i rushed out to meet sarah le, wanted to visit qiqi and malia but aiya pai seh la go alone haha so i didnt in the end.. met sarah at whitesands library, den we go walk walk.. we were like super cute and ultra dumdum la haha but it was fun nonetheless :) okie end of flashback!!

Next, wad i did jus now ba --->

okie 18th dec was benjamin tan's and my sis's birthday!! happy birthday both of u!! mornin went watchin movie with benjamin and ppl, watched blade.. damn stupid show, dunno wad the hell it was all abt and all i know frm dat show was the middle finger here and dere, fuck this and fuck that and dick here and dick there hahaha... well dats basically how i'm gonna sum up the stupid show haha.. no wonder it was nc-16 pui!! aft dat we went playin lan, yen theng and i was so irritated by some fella who kept playin the SHE song, Superstar.. it was like so tmd can!! haha oh ya did i mentioned if yen theng wasnt there jus now, i seriously wld rather not be dere.. luv yen theng!! hahah cant blame abit bias cuz he came back frm america 2 days again and i really missed him.. talkin abt yen theng i miss thanin!! okie dun digress.. den we when ben's hse played abit den eat like pigs and we went back.. phew kinda borin and lester was dere pui!! spoil my day nia, idiot.. oh ya we had a little vodka at ben's hse too haha.. but well idiot hafta serve me, so vodka = nv drink also la, pour so little muz as well dun pour.. went home super tired, wanted to go celebrate my sis's birthday properly one.. but sianz like see some fucker face spoil my nite again, come home like war liddat piangz.. want to reconcile also need both parties to be willin la, seems like they not willin den forget it lor, really cant be bothered alr haha.. went out to haf supper with charmaine jus now, super funny seh she.. but suay time with her spoilt again by the fucker.. well nvm, i haf things on my hands to do and i'm happy haha.. altho no money but still happy hahaha!! :) will not let stupid ppl and stupid stuff put me down oh yeah!! haha.. i knew it baby bingy baobei is a lucky boy!! haha :p

b i n g s h u n b i n g g a n b i n g y b i n g k i n s

my doc is a quack!!

2004-12-16T20:38:00.000+08:00

tmd my doc is a quack!! rubbish ass.. my bone like no prob alr lor, see the x-ray also the same as before...den he say it is healin very well -____-'' crazy!! den aft i remove the brace, no impact sports for 6 mths!! tmd wad was he thinkin abt?? tell me all cannot except swimmin.. waste money go check up when he forever tell me the same thing and forever tell me i cannot move vigorously.. tmd i danced jus 2 days ago can!! stupid quack//